Rule #3: Changing The Rules

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This chapter and the previous one is a flashback part.

Chapter 38

It wasn't easy to be pregnant without having anyone else.

I went to New York by myself. Doon kasi ako may natanggap na scholarship for medical school. But as soon as I arrived there, I started experiencing weird symptoms.

Every morning I would throw up and feel dizzy. Pansin rin ng mga kaibigan ko ang pananaba ko. Hindi ko na masyadong pinapansin dahil baka nagkakasakit lang ako.

But one trip to the doctor changed everything. That's when I found out that I am 7 weeks pregnant with my little one.

I was full of mixed emotions. Happiness, sadness and fear of being a mother.

Wala akong alam sa pagiging mabuting ina. Heck, this was not my plan at all. Hindi ko naman aakalain na 'yung huling ginawa naming iyon ay magbubunga.

I came here to fulfill my dreams, but I turned out to be pregnant. Hindi ko alam ang gagawin. I'm still not financially stable! Nakaasa pa rin ako sa trust fund at savings kong binibigay ni Mommy and Daddy.

Despite my father's sins in our family, hindi naman niya ako pinabayaan at naghuhulog pa rin ng pera sa account ko. He pays for my tuition and recently bought me a new car here in New York. Sa kanya rin nanggaling ang apartment na ito.

I was angry at him, but I knew I needed a place to stay. Inisip ko nalang na responsibilidad niya iyon bilang ama ko.

"Pumangit ka ata?" natatawang sabi ni Lia.

I groaned. Lately, I've been feeling so haggard and tired. Tuwing tumitingin ako sa salamin, all I could think about is how I already lost my looks.

"Nagtaka ka pa, Lia? Pangit naman 'yan, noon pa man..." Kale cackled.

Sinamaan ko siya ng tingin at hinampas sa balikat. I started choking his neck, napaaray ito at pilit akong nilalayo ng marahan.

"Tama na, buntis!" he said.

Pinilipit ko pa ang tainga niya. Nakakabwisit!

I felt tired and rested on the couch instead. Damn, ang hirap naman nito! Lagi nalang akong pagod para konting galaw lang nakakapagod na. I feel like the baby is draining my energy too much.

Sana lang ay kamukha ko siya. If not, I'll choke his daddy when I see him.

"Next month ka na, diba?" tanong ni Lia.

I nodded.

"Can't I give birth already? Naiinip na ako!" I complained.

Lia chuckled. "Hindi pwede, ginusto mo 'yan e. Pabuntis pa sige..."

I groaned. "Hindi ako nagpabuntis, okay! Di ko sinadya! I wasn't taking pills when it happened, because I don't have a partner. Wala ring oras para bumili ng condom dahil gusto ko na non!"

Kale cringed at me.

"Eww, horny naman niyan. Baka naman ikaw lang ang may gusto sa katawan niya, at hindi siya?" he teased.

Hinampas ko siya ng throw pillow.

"You moron! Hindi, ha! I loved him for real. I just did it for the last time so he'll stop pestering me. Malay ko ba kung magtatanim siya ng bata sa tiyan ko?"

"Knowing him? He might've done it on purpose..." Kale shrugged.

Kumunot ang noo ko. Nah, he won't. Why would he? Nabanggit niya na noon na ayaw niyang magkaanak. Would that change? Hindi naman siguro.