Loki, my darling

II

When I was (ihy) about thirteen, they let me out. I had learned all their history and traditions and hadn't caused any harm so they found me "safe enough to let out". I now found myself homeless on the streets of Asgard, begging for food, hiding from guards and weather conditions, surviving. I still couldn't use my powers because although the cell was safer, warmer, and had better food, I didn't want to risk being put back in there.

During my worst winter, I found myself in the line to see the king, Odin. I begged him for food, for answers, but he turned me away. All I wanted was to know where I was really from, why I was hated, what had I done to suffer like that, why I had to be beaten up at least once a month on the streets, but he didn't say a single word, just moved his hand to make the guards take me away. At that point I hadn't eaten in weeks, I had been beaten a few days ago by some other guards when I tried to steal a piece of bread. I had nothing in me to keep me going and I passed out in front of him before the guards made it to me.

I woke up in a room, still in the castle, with Frigga, Odin's wife, by my side. She said she only sneaked in for a minute, and that even though Odin didn't approve it she'd explain some things to me. She told me about my mum's past and asked me to not trust her even though she knows I might love her. She then explained who my dad had been - a soldier, who insisted on fighting my mother alongside the Valkyries, but ended up being seduced by her and then killed after she had gotten pregnant. All she had wanted from him was a child, who'd have powers and could help her escape. My mother had only wanted me so that she could have a weapon. Frigga didn't just tell me as she knew I wouldn't trust her enough to believe. She showed me, with her magic, showed me the past exactly how it had happened. I cried, it hurt like hell, turned out the one person I thought had wanted me hadn't actually wanted me either. Frigga told me she was sorry I had to wait so long to know the truth, and that she wished it would be a better truth, but "ugly truth is better than a beautiful lie" and then told me the reason Odin was afraid of telling me - I was much more powerful than Hela and since I wasn't born in Asgard my power didn't come from it, it came entirely from me. That made me as powerful as Odin and he was afraid I'd do something like my mother did. At that moment I promised both to her and to myself that I would never be like my mum, furthermore, I'd make sure she never hurt anyone ever again. After I asked about it, she told me that the origin story of my name was true, it was about the only thing my mum hadn't lied to me about. My father, before mum brutally killed her, had chosen that name and she liked the sound of it. She didn't know that it meant a warrior, a protector of mankind, and immediately gave me the fate of becoming the goddess of protection. Frigga then left, to not get caught by Odin and endanger both me and herself with that.

As soon as I had gained some strength I was thrown out of the castle again. I went to Heimdall, asked her to get me to my mother, just for a few minutes. Reluctantly he did. She was surprised to see me, thought I had come to get her out. "No" I answered when she was asking if that's why I came "I came to make sure you NEVER hurt anyone ever again. To prove I am nothing like you, I am no goddess of hurting or death or destruction, I protect the world from it, even when it doesn't deserve my protection, I always will" "But baby, by killing me you'll only prove the other," "I won't kill you," and those were my last words to her before I froze her and had the ground grow around the icicle she was now prisoned in. She wouldn't be able to escape before I would die, which hopefully wouldn't happen before she did, as my ice wouldn't stop her from aging. (With that I avoided the exact scenario of Ragnarok, but Thor still found Loki in Asgard and they witnessed their father dying in Norway. He told them about Hela and me before dying. Thor and Loki, being in shock, fell off of Bifrost on their way back to Asgard and therefore still ended up accidentally in Sakaar and came back with Banner and Brunnhilde (the Valkyrie). The Grandmaster somehow followed them and caused Ragnarok so the Asgardians still came back to Earth, but Loki didn't get the tesseract so Thanos didn't get to their ship and didn't kill Loki. He still got the stone though.).

I then had Heimdall bring me back, but Odin was already there too, angry at me even though I had only done good. He didn't trust me. He then banished me to Midgard, to the Earth. I later realized he was also angry because of the crisis happening - Frigga died a few days after, there was a war happening, and so on.