Loki, my darling

XIV

When I arrived on the roof it was at the same time as some others. When most of us (except for Bruce) were there a portal appeared to take us to NYC. It was Dr. Strange. "No time to wait for the Hulk, now come," he said as he was struggling to keep open the portal while also fighting. We all ran through to find a big alien spaceship over the city while Tony, Strange, and his friends were trying to fight off the aliens, who seemed to be after Strange. There weren't many aliens, surprisingly, turned out it was mainly just the one, but he seemed powerful. I immediately started off by stopping the rocks-turned-to-blades the dude was sending towards us mid-air and sending them back towards him instead. He turned them into dust with ease but still seemed impressed with me. Loki, who stood next to me, gave the alien one look, and whispered, "Fuck! It's him, it's Ebony Maw, that means Thanos isn't far," I think he was talking mainly to himself, but I couldn't not notice he knew that guy. The bad guy. "You know him?" I said, while also trying to keep myself focused on the battle. I was surprisingly good at multitasking, for now at least. He gave me a quick nod, then looked at me. "You trust me, right?" he asked me, "Of course I do." "Then I promise what I'm about to do isn't what it looks like," he said and before I could react he stood tall and started walking towards the Ebony guy as if he was greeting an old friend. "If it isn't Ebony Maw," he greeted him, "Need any help there?". I was shaken. Did he just betray all of us? He wouldn't... would he? I felt everything shatter into confusion inside me. He had asked me to trust him, but he had just gone over to the bad guys' side. He stood next to Ebony and started fighting against us. "I knew we shouldn't have trusted him," said Tony angrily, sending fire towards him. He seemed to block all our attempts to hurt him pretty well. I couldn't bring myself to send anything actually dangerous towards him though. I actually noticed he was mainly just blocking, with some added bad attack moves here and there. I too, at some point, was mainly just protecting, as I was too shaken up to fight. I was letting everyone else down, they'd hate me... but I already hated myself too, I had fallen for the wrong guy. I had given him everything, opened up for the first time in my life, and now he just threw it away at the first chance. It soon became hard to fight them off and I got hit and fell on the ground. I looked at Loki, he looked as if it was killing him, but that could have just been a cover, just like the love thing had been. The alien got Strange attached to a piece of stone and floated him into the spaceship. Loki followed him. It seemed to me like he turned to look back at me and mouthed "Trust me," one last time, but I was losing my consciousness so it might've just as well been in my head. The last thing I saw was the ship taking off with Tony and Peter going after it.

I woke up a few minutes later as Nat, Cap, and Bucky were gathered around me. "Did we just lose?" was the first question I got out. "Not quite," said Nat, "Tony and Peter are on that ship, they might still manage to keep the time stone safe," "So the guy is after the stones?" I asked, realizing exactly what was happening, "in that case we need to go, NOW," I stood up even though my head was still spinning. "They're going after vision next. He has the mind stone," I said, which then all three of them seemed to realize the seriousness of. "Right," said Cap, "I'll make the calls," He stepped away and took out his phone. Buc went to see if he could help him with anything, Nat stayed standing there with me. "Are you okay? What happened? You were really badass at first but seemed to lose it halfway through the battle.." she said. There was no point hiding it now, they had to know, that was the only way for me to avoid having to face Loki alone if there was to be a bigger battle. "It was Loki," I said, "He betrayed us. He betrayed me. He was the first person I've ever let in. I thought we were in love, last night he told me he loved me and now he just stabbed me in the back like that. And he told me to trust him while doing it," "So that's what you two were going to tell us... I am so sorry, Cass. You deserve so much better. Are you ready to face the enemies again as we are going to go and protect Vision or do you need some time?" she asked. Well, at least she wasn't mad at me, I thought to myself. I guess she knew how having someone you love leave you just out of the blue feels like - she lost Banner after the battle with Ultron for quite awhile. At least Banner didn't switch sides, though. But the last thing I wanted right now was to be left alone with my thoughts. I'd end up in a deeper hole than I was before Loki. I needed something to focus on and protecting Vision and the rest of the Universe seemed like a perfect way to distract myself. I'd be protecting, it's my duty after all.