Loki, my darling

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After a few moments I calmed down and the biggest panic attack I had ever had, had passed. I slowly opened my eyes, afraid of what I would see, afraid that it turned out Loki's voice had only been inside my head while my body was permanently taken away from me. But instead, he was there, sitting on the foot of my bed, eyes filled with tears and worry. He was really here, why was he here? I had forbidden him to place himself in any danger. He read me through my eyes as he always did and said, "We're safe, we are both safe now, they're shutting down S.W.O.R.D. for what they've been doing to you and what they've been talking about me." The relief this sentence brought me cannot be put into words, the dam holding in my tears broke down again, but this time it wasn't from fear or anger or sadness, it was from the hope that I had lost long ago finding its way back to me. I reached my hand out to Loki, wanting to make sure it really was him, that he really was here, and he pulled me into his arms. He held me and hummed silently to my ear. I started shivering a bit as my body was exhausted and I was wearing nothing. feeling it Loki immediately took off both his shirt and his jacket and put them both on me. They were warm and they smelled of him, as obviously did he. I hoped that this time the plan of not leaving each other would actually work. He said we were safe and I trusted him so before leaving this room of horrors I wanted to just be held by him for a little longer.

Suddenly I felt some weird movement type of thing in my lower belly. I closed my eyes and tried to focus on it, to feel what was there and if it was something I would need a doctor to take care of immediately or if it could wait. To my surprise I found a little person in there, or I guess they weren't a person yet, but they did already have little fingers and little toes and a mouth that to me just seemed as if it was smiling. It made sense, that's why I was always only sick after waking up and had to always go and throw up as the first thing. It had been morning sickness. I had been pregnant this whole time and through some miracle the baby was okay. Oh my god, me and Loki, we were going to be parents. I pulled myself a bit away from him, to look at him. The look of surprise on my face seemed to not just confuse but also worry him, "Want to tell me what's on your mind, Cass?" his gentle low voice asked. I nodded, took his hand, and placed it so that his palm was on my forehead. "Take a look," I whispered, then closed my eyes and again focused on the baby. Our baby. Doing small moves already and everything. I then opened my eyes back up to look at Loki, who now had an expression that was probably similar to what I had had on my face before. I smiled. "Loki, we are going to be parents..." I said. He pulled me into a hug and gave me a kiss. He then looked at me, eyes filled with love, "You are going to be the best mother," he said and kissed the top of my head, "and I'll learn to be a decent father, I have to," "Loki, you are going to be an amazing father, even if you don't want to believe it yourself. We are not our parents, we are going to be better, it's not that hard to overbear them after how they were with us, you know," I said, which made him chuckle, "Yeah, I guess you're right," he said as his palm found its way onto my belly, where one of my hands already was. "She is still going to be a mummy's girl though, I'm pretty sure about that," "She? A girl?" I raised my eyebrows in surprise, "Yeah, it's a little princess," he smiled, "did you not know?" I shook my head but returned the smile as with these few minutes all the pain of the past weeks somehow faded away. I knew it would still come to haunt me at night and I'd still have panic attacks, but it didn't feel that scary anymore. I wasn't gonna have to face it alone, I'd have Loki and our little princess by my side. And that was going to be more than enough. I found Loki's lips and kissed him as he had, once again, saved my life. This was what, the third time? "Let's get you out of here, my darlings," he then said, as he picked me up bridal style and carried me out. I chuckled as he had really just said darlings, in plural, making our little family feel even more real. "I can walk, you know," "I know, but where would the fun be in that?" he had his beautiful mischievous smirk on, I had missed it so much. We went through tens of corridors and several floors up until we found Nat waiting for us on one. "Nat!" I called out and jumped out of Loki's arms to go hug her. After all, she was the best girlfriend I had ever had and I hadn't seen her since before the fight with Thanos. And that was a LONG time ago. "Cass! You're okay! Thank god!" she replied as she wrapped me into a hug, "You know you have to stop trying to face the world alone," she said. She was right about that. "Yeah, sorry about that, but I am done with that now, and I actually might need at least a few years off," "No shit," she said, only to have Cap yell "LanGuAGe!" from behind her. "Hey, Cap!" I greeted him, "nice to see you too." He laughed a bit as he came to hug me, "Good to know you are still your sassy self even after everything," he said. I guess he was right, who I had been before was still there inside me, she had changed a lot, but the main part was still the same. "Sorry to break in on the heart-warming get-together, but I think we should get Cass out of here, finally," said Fury, who had just walked in. I nodded, he was right, but I still added, "I missed you too, Fury," as we all made our way to the roof. He rolled his eye, but you could tell there was a soft hidden smile on his face.

We boarded a plane only for me to be given like 100 more hugs. They had all missed me. Even Strange gave me a hug and he is not at all a hugger, as well as Tony. I was grateful for it all, but I was also extremely exhausted, after all, I had basically been tortured for weeks. Or months. I still had no clue how long I had been there for or whether it was sunrise or sunset outside, but whichever it was, it painted the sky in beautiful colors. I had Loki's arms around me and the chatter of all the Avengers surrounding me as I fell asleep, happy and calm.

When we made it back to the headquarters I was told to get to the lab to have a medical checkup, you know, to make sure there was no damage caused by the S.W.O.R.D. people. That meant they'd find out about me and Loki having a baby. So before I would let them onto my body I said, "Cap," to which he immediately reacted, "Yes," "Before we went to fight the aliens in New York, me and Loki were going to tell you all something, but you said we could do it later. Do you think we could do it now, before another thing comes in the way?" I asked, pointing at the lab building they were gonna check me up in. He gave me a nod, and quickly gathered everyone into the living room. I took Loki's hand and then turned to everyone, "Most of you already know about me and Loki being together now, probably," I said, surprised to still see some faces be shocked by it, but continued, "But now there's more news than just that," I looked at Loki, the gentleness in his eyes melting right into me. That was the piece of his soul that found its way right back into me. I smiled and took his hand, moved it onto my belly, "We are going to be having a baby girl," I said, which made Tony Stark, the badass Ironman, literally fall off of his seat in shock. I laughed. "Need any help there, Tony?" I teased, to which he rolled his eyes and said "Ha ha, very funny" as he got himself up. Thor then said, being confused by it, "So you're telling me I am going to be an uncle and a grand-uncle at the same time?!" "Yup" I replied, because it was true, we had an interesting family-situation happening. "Oh god," he groaned, still struggling to comprehend it. "And there's one other thing," Loki then said, but now I had no idea what he was going on about. I turned my confused face to him only to find him not standing up next to me but on one knee with a ring in his hand instead. My mouth fell open as I realized what he was doing, I stumbled and almost fell over. I heard Tony comment "You need any help there, Cass?" after which Pepper gave him a pretty hard nudge. I however hadn't taken my eyes off of Loki, who now said, "Cass, you are the most important person in my life. You didn't just prove to me I can be a good person, you taught me to love, to care. You made me a better person. You complete me, you are my other half and all I want from the rest of my life is to be together with you, our little girl, and maybe one day some more small Loki-s and Cass-es. I love you. Do you think you could do me the honor of spending the rest of your life with me? Will you marry me, Cass?" Tears were running down my face. I nodded, "Yes Loki, yes I will. I love you SO MUCH," I kneeled down next to him and wrapped myself in his arms, his lips meeting mine. I now had everything I had ever wanted, more than I ever thought I could have. He slipped the beautiful silver ring with a light blue stone onto my finger. I had seen it before, it had been Frigga's, she had worn it that day, when she told me about my heritage and my duties, gave me the answers I had desperately needed. I turned to others as me and Loki stood up without him taking his hands from around me. I liked it that way. "Yeah, so I guess we are also getting married," I chuckled and gave Loki another little kiss while everyone else had decided to clap. Thor in the back yelled "WOOHOO AN ASGARDIAN ROYAL WEDDING IS COMING!!" only to be pinched by Nat for that.