Loki, my darling

XIII

I was then lying there next to him, our hands wrapped together, panting. I looked at him, happy as can be, and his eyes stared back into mine. "That was AMAZING," I told him. He chuckled, "It really was." He then pulled my hand and with that the rest of my body towards me, wrapping himself around me and leaving us staring into each other with our faces just inches apart. "Cass," he said. Him saying my name made shivers go down my spine. But his next words gave me much more. "I love you, Cass," he said. The same words I had been afraid to tell him. "What?" "I am in love with you Cassandra.." It took me a second to process it, which I guess made him think I wouldn't say it back, "I don't expect you to say it back yet, take your time, however long you need, I just wanted you to know," But I was ready. I had already been ready before, I just didn't think he'd be ready for that, that I'd scare him off. But apparently he was. "I love you too, Loki, I really really do." I then said, smiling from the bottom of my heart. First surprise was painted over his face, then relief, and then the same love we had just talked about. He gave me the sweetest most gentle smile ever. He kissed my forehead and pulled me even closer to him, which I hadn't realized was possible. I then slid my arms out of his embrace, so I could wrap some of me around him too. And so I slid them around his neck. We lied there like that for quite a while, that was the happiest I had ever been, the safest I had felt, the first time I ever really loved someone and someone loved me.

Loki soon fell asleep. He was so handsome when he was awake but somehow he was even more gorgeous asleep. I guess him being there like that, naked, in my bed, probably played a part in that. I gently stroked his hair and cheek, making sure I didn't wake him up, and smiled to myself. "I love you so much, it's crazy," I whispered. I then got up as I felt too sweaty to sleep, and got into the shower. I washed my hair and body, just thinking of how he touched the parts of me that I was now washing, one by one. Suddenly there was a knock on the shower's glass wall. I almost got a heart attack, I swear, I hadn't heard him coming in. But there he stood, the guy I was just thinking about. "Mind washing me too?" he asked from me teasingly, with a smirk on his face, and gave me a wink. "Only if you'll wash me," I said as I knew there was no way I'd say no to having him close to me. And so we did it. Washed each other I mean, a few kisses here and there, but I was still a bit sore, it had been my first time after all, so nothing more.

Afterwards we dried ourselves and got some underwear on. We then climbed back under the sheets of my bed and I fell asleep with his arms holding me tightly. I had no nightmares, which was extremely rare for me. It felt nice though. When I woke up the sun was already out, it was probably around 11 am or noon. Loki was still asleep so I just watched him for a while. I then got up, took his shirt, which I had ripped a button off of, and put it on. It smelled like him and I loved it. I was going to keep it. I brushed my teeth and managed to put my hair up into a messy bun. I then climbed back in bed, just as Loki was waking up. "Good morning," I said, feeling the smile I had lighting up my face. "Good morning, darling," he replied with his deep morning voice. I hadn't been expecting that and I think my mouth fell open because he chuckled looking at me. "Like the morning voice, huh?" he said. I rolled my eyes, but then gave him a quick kiss and replied with "I'm gonna leave you guessing," "Oh, you're gonna kill me with that tough love of yours, Cass" he said laughing. "Huh... I think I was pretty sweet last night.." I replied as I rolled myself out of bed. He laughed and said "Well your hotness almost killed me," "You started, shouldn't have underestimated me," I said, picking the rest of our clothes off the floor, "I am keeping this shirt by the way." "Go ahead, looks better on you anyway," he said, as he had come up to me and was now hugging me from behind. He kissed down from my ear to my shoulder. "I love you," he said. I turned myself around and said "I love you too," before giving him a kiss, "I think it's now time we tell others about us too," I added. "I'd love that, but only if you're sure you're ready for that," he replied. "I won't be able to keep myself away from you enough to not tell them so I don't think we have a choice, really," I said, giggling. "Fair enough," he said and blessed me with another godly kiss. He then said "I gotta go get ready in my own room now, as it seems you've stolen some of my clothes," he said, picking up his pants from the chair I had set them onto. "Well, you could always borrow some of mine," I said jokingly. "Yeah, I think I'm gonna need a rain check on that," he gave me a quick kiss on the head and disappeared out the door.

I took off his shirt and placed it into an empty drawer in my closet. I then put on a sweats-set, the top of which was cropped, but not too much. I wanted to feel comfy. I headed downstairs, with the biggest smile on my face. Nat was the first one to notice me come, "Well good morning sleepyhead," she said, "slept well I see." "Amazingly well, actually," I replied and danced into the kitchen. I got myself a fruit salad and started eating it, waiting for Loki to get there too so that we could go gather everyone and make our "announcement". He soon came, "You ready?" he asked, smiling. I swallowed the last bite and placed the bowl in the sink. "Ready as can be. But don't you wanna eat first?" "I'll eat after, let's go," he said and walked into the living room. "Guys, there's something me and Loki need to tell you about," I said, to get everyone's attention. I then realized, Bucky wasn't there. "Where's Buc?" I asked. "He's in his room, want me to go get him?" said Cap. I nodded and he disappeared upstairs. I stood there, peeking nervously at Loki, who seemed a bit tense too, then looked around the room. I was actually excited to tell everyone, for me this was the best thing that had ever happened to me, but I still had that part of me that feared they'd judge me, push me out, be mad. Then Steve returned, with Buc following him, "So, we're all here now," stated Nat, "tell us already, it obviously is important if you need us all here,". "Well, me and Loki, we.." I started forming the sentence as it came out. "We are.." Loki began saying, to finish what I was saying, looking at me reassuringly. But then suddenly, the alarm saying the Avengers were needed to Duty went off. "New York is under alien attack," said the text that had appeared on the TV. "Everyone, suit up! We'll meet on the roof in two," said Cap, "you'll finish telling us later." I gave him a nod, then looked at Loki for a second before hurrying to my room to get my suit on.

As I walked in my door I stated, "Friday, I need my suit, NOW!" and the wall opposite of my bed disappeared into my floor revealing the suit. I got it on and ran to the roof. This was it, the moment I would actually become an Avenger, the first time I'd actually be able to protect the innocent as I was supposed to. Also the first time I had to prove myself. And the first time I had someone who was dear to me in grave danger. A lot was going on in my head, but I tried to clear it up as much as I could. I had to save the Earth for god's sake.