Hate feeling alone Eren x Reader

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I stopped kissing him feeling sick that I actually enjoyed his touch- this wasn't part of the plan.
"(YN)" he searched my eyes
"Yes"
"Would you- want to...stay over?" His hand squeezed my arm gently "I'm not saying we have to do anything! it's so late already and-"
"Sure" the words escaped my mouth 'no! I mean no'
I got off him.
"My rooms down the hall to the left and the bathroom is opposite" he pointed in the direction "you can wear one of my shirts"
I followed his directions and entered his room.

....
Jeans room

Mikasa laced his chest with kisses. Jean couldn't get enough of this view seeing her onto of him.
He wanted to put Connies words at the back of his mind but it kept chewing at him.
"Wait"
"We haven't even started" she kissed his neck.
"We need to talk first"
"About what?" She faced him
"Do you even like me Mikasa?" His eyes closed awaiting what he dreaded.

She didn't have an answer
"Of course!" He sat up
"Jean" she held his shoulder "Eren and I will never be together he's in love with (YN)"
"So that gives you the right to use me?!" He brushed her hand off.
"Listen!" She wasn't going to let him leave "I admit I was using you this morning to somehow get back at Eren not that he would care. But Jean..." she pulled him back down on the bed "I want to try with you" her fingers traced his jaw, he could hear the honesty in her voice.

"We can start from the beginning and get to know each other better" she spoke. "Please believe me Jean" tears pooled in her eyes.
Jean's heart wanted it. He knew he would regret it if he walked away without at least trying.
"Let's try" he softy kissed her lips.

....

Armin tried to block out the moans coming from Jeans room further down the hall. He leaned against Eren's door waiting for him to come back.
Eren's figure soon came into frame "Eren how did it go?" Armin questioned noticing Eren's eyes were red. Was he crying?
"Eren?" He called for him again watching him open his room door. The blonde followed him inside.

"I didn't speak to him Armin" his back facing the blonde
"Why?"
"I went around the back like you told me" Eren looked at Armin "and (YN) was there-" he didn't want to relive that moment.
Armin understood what he wanted to say.

"She's probably fallen for him" he sat on his bed
"That doesn't mean you can't get her back!" Armin reminded him.
"Get her back? Armin we have 11 days until we leave for another attack. This time I might not even return she's better off being happy than waiting for a dead man"

"Don't say that-"
"It's reality Armin!" Eren held the side of his head, his eyes swirled. "I wish- I wish that it was different but it's not. I can't give her what she deserves" Armin could see the hope gone from Eren.

"If love means anything to you Eren, keep that promise you made me and see her before you leave. You owe her that at least" Armin left his room.

.....

The sudden thought of Eren popped into my mind. It felt like an eternity since I last saw his face and heard his voice.

I missed him.

Aksel's room was minimal it had a bed, dresser, and a large wardrobe. There had to be something in here. I pulled the draws of the dresser open "clothes, clothes" the last draw was locked
"Key" I spoke to myself searching through the opened ones but didn't find anything.
I went off to the large wardrobe there were shirts and shoes inside but no boxes. I looked underneath the bed
"empty" I huffed. it had to be somewhere.
"(YN)" I jumped at his voice, he spoke from outside the door.  "there's spear toothbrush in the cabinet in the bathroom"
"Okay-y thanks"
I quickly changed my clothes putting on his shirt.
I checked the cabinet for the key and underneath the sink.

"Is everything alright?" Aksel stood over me, I slowly stood up "y-yes"
He grabbed his toothbrush "looks like your searching for something" he watched me through the mirror. His steal blue eyes piercing me.
"No!" I began brushing my teeth.

I washed out my mouth and went back to his room. Is he on to me? I climbed into the bed.
Aksel walks in taking his shirt off. I couldn't help but tingle at his chiseled body.
With his pants off I could see he was very well equipped 'stop it (YN)!'

He drew the light mesh curtains blocking the moonlight.
The bed dipped as he got in. His arm around me, my head on his chest.
He was warm and inviting.
Maybe I had nothing to be worried about?
"(YN)" his deep voice in my ear wanting me to look at him.
"Goodnight" he kissed my forehead, I smiled to myself liking this feeling of being loved by someone.
That's probably what I missing love, affection from someone.

I slowly drifted off to sleep.

Dead in the night, Aksel awoke from a bloody dream. His blood was pumping and his skin was covered in sweat. His eyes shifted to your sleeping body and he took deep breaths to calm himself.

In the bathroom, he splashed cold water over his face. "Just a dream" he observed his reflection in the mirror. The flashes of his family gone in an instant, crushed under the rubble from the sudden emergence of the Attack Titan tormented him.

A split second was all it took and split second was all he needed to slit your throat.

He grips the edge of the sink conflicted.
He came here to get back at the man who killed his family and the scouts that took his friends lives.
But when he met you at the graveyard, he truly believed he fell in love at first sight. They would shoot him for even thinking that back home. Nevertheless, it was true he felt something for you.

"Why does it have to be this way?"

Of course, he knew he was no match for Eren but a mutual friend of his by the name of Reiner told him you were the best option.

You were Eren's weakness...