Hate feeling alone Eren x Reader

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And now his weakness.

Aksel went back into the room your vulnerable body displayed before him. He could strangle you and bury you right now and escape before the morning.

He couldn't bring himself to hurt you.
What if he told you the truth? He imagined the both of you running away together back to his hometown. No one would know you were an 'island devil' he had grown to hate that phrase, you were far from that.

Glancing over to the dresser he figured you were looking for the key. He walked over to his wardrobe taking out one of the shoes. He peeled back the sole, a small sliver key tucked inside.

Your soft snores filled the room as he opened the draw. A gun to the left, his army badge right next to it. On the right a photo of his parents and two younger siblings, a reminder for him to execute his mission.

He could leave this key on top of the dresser and let you find it.
How would you react?
Would you really run away with him? Knowing he was the enemy from across the pond?

A stupid idea to those on the outside but a hopeful one to him.
He placed the key down.

"Eren" you breathed out in your sleep
How could he forget that bastard had your heart.
Aksel laid next to you, the streams of tears stained your skin.
"Even in your dreams, he causes you pain" Aksel couldn't figure out what you loved about that man so much. As far as he could see he didn't value you as he should.

He stretched his hand out to pull the covers back over you when he caught glimpse of your stomach and upper thighs. 
Scars plastered your skin, he traced a few with his fingertips. Who would do this to her? Or was this self-inflicted?

He pulled the covers over both of you. It's was best not to mention it he thought.

.....

The morning rays woke me up.
A wave of sadness passed over me 'Eren' I could see him in my dream last night. His back was turned to me, he wouldn't speak when I called for him.
Instead, he walked off, slowly disappearing and no matter how hard I tried I couldn't reach him.

Sometimes I felt he purposefully appeared in my dreams- and then I remember that's not possible right?

Yawning I stood up going to the door to find Aksel.
The glimmer of silver caught my eye.
The key!

'Did he put it here on purpose?'
I was cautious but I slid the key into the lock, turning it until it clicked. I pulled the draw out, the contents shifted forward.
My stomach dropped seeing the army badge "Marley" my voice wavering.

'I was right...'

The metal item next to the badge puzzled me I had never seen anything like it. I picked it up, it was cold against my skin, my finger fit perfectly in the small loop. I pressed slightly at what seemed to be a button almost.
"DON'T PRESS IT!" Aksel shouted causing me to jump back 'BANG!' The sound rang in my eardrums.

My heart was beating out of my chest 'what the hell was that?!'  The dresser now how a gaping hole in it. I couldn't keep my hands from trembling.
"(YN) give me the gun!" He moved closer
'Gun?' I held it up to him. His movements halted.
"Stay right there!" I demanded
"I can't do that-"
"If you move another inch I swear I'll blow your brains out!" My finger itched at the trigger.

Aksel stopped, staring dead at me "go ahead (YN)"
'What?' I stayed silent.
"Press your finger down and let that bullet free. It'll go straight through" he touched his temple "the impact would shatter my skull. The blood would plaster the walls around you, and you'll watch my body hit the floor..." his eyes were closed "your stomach will knot, twisting your insides, but if you're strong enough you won't cave and vomit but you'll remember pulling that trigger every night. Hearing the gun go off, the sound of flesh splattering. Not to mention the smell of blood-"

"Shut up!" I tried holding the gun steady.
"Don't you want to know what taking your first life is like? I mean, you are pointing the gun at me. Isn't this what you wanted? To get rid of me? Huh (YN)?"

He was right.

'BANG!'

Aksel dropped to his knees breathing hard, he looked back seeing a hole in the wall. "You're fucking crazy"
"Yes the fuck I am, I don't play when it comes to Eren" I pressed the tip of the gun to his temple standing over him.

"ErenErenEren" he mumbled before lunging at me forcing me backward, the gun went off again hitting the ceiling. My back hit the floor, he held me down with his weight.

The gun off to the side, I reached for it but he held my arms in place. "You've actually surprised me, didn't think you had the balls"
"Get off me!"
"Listen!" he held my jaw "I didn't put that key there for you to do this. We are going to sit down and talk understand!"
"I SAID GET OFF ME!" With as much force as possible, I forced my knee to his crotch.
"AAARGH" he flipped on to his side screaming out.

I staggered out of the room my legs became jelly like as the adrenaline faded away.
"(YN)!!" His voice followed me with each step I took.
I ran into the kitchen grabbing a knife
"(YN)!"
Without hesitation I swung the knife as I spun around. Aksel caught it in his hand, the blade ripped threw his skin, threads of blood trailed down the metal surface dripping onto the floor.

"I don't want to hurt you (YN), please don't make me" his lips pressed tightly together and his hand gripped the blade drawing more blood.

With my free hand, I reached behind blindly searching for another knife.
"(YN) please" he yanked me towards him, throwing the knife to the  floor. He locked me in place twisting my arm back, The loose plates and cutlery sprawled over the floor as my body hit the table.

His hand around my neck he pressed down slowly cutting off the airflow. I wrestled against his grip.
.....

Eren awoke from his daze. His peers chatted amongst themselves.
He could have sworn he heard you calling for him last night.

His eyes found Mikasa and Jean in the corner whispering to each other. He wasn't jealous in the slightest but he couldn't help picture them as you and him.

He would whisper sweet things in your ear just so you would be flustered and grace him with those supple lips.

There were so many things he wanted to share with you.
A first date was one of them. He wasn't sure where it would be but he knew he would make it special.

Because you were special to him.

A/N:🤍