Happiness ✓

Dream

KONGPOB

"Ew who the fuck is that?"

I heard someone said but all I can see is brown and incoherent words echoing. I kept walking forward, my legs can't seem to stop. I know something is wrong but my body nor my brain didn't panic or did anything than to walk.

"Must be the new kid, I heard his parents abandoned him"

I heard someone said once more, but as hard as I want to turn my head my body won't allow it. Instead I just keep on walking forward.

I kept walking and walking as people's voices started to yell at me saying mean words, scolding me, bullying me.

"Bastard!"

"Abomination!"

"Just another pathetic mistake!"

"Burden!"

Tears were starting to build up in my eyes, they're right. I'm unworthy, ugly, worthless... another pathetic mistake. I breath started to get limited but I didn't mind but only sobbed more.

I kept walking and walking as I ended up on top of a building, I looked down and boy a long way down there, my trars cleared and now I can see people. Faceless people with only their mouths.

"Jump jump jump!"

"Just end your life already!"

"Useless piece of fucking shit! Jump!"

"Jump!"

They all said simultaneously, I cried harder. This is it, I'm gonna die, in front of these weird people. As I kept crying these people grew and grew untill my fear consumed me and I jumped...

"Shh, it's okay. It was only a dream"

My breath hitched, my tears were still fresh on my cheeks. I'm frightened, what was that dream? It was so, so real and scary and strange. I choked in my owm saliva as I roamed my eyes and hugged P'arthit.

Slowly, I felt more relaxed now. His hug always comfort me. As my tensed body recovered I faced P'arthit. He looked worried.

"You okay?"

I nodded.

"I am now"

I said staring into him.

He nodded before settling beside me. Is he going to sleep here? Here with me?

"Come on, I'll stay here"

I smiled before I snuggled closer to him. His hard body against my soft one. I settled beside him laying on his arm.

"Thank you, I don't know what else to say. It's just so...the feeling is just so foreign for me. I mean, it's my first time being this comfortable in someone's arms"

He chuckled before looking at me, deep. Oh his eyes, his dark onxy alluring eyes that could capture any kind of soul, well my soul for one. I kept staring at him, I can't seem to understand my actions when I'm with him, one moment I become flirty, then shy, then affectionate, I wouldn't be surprised if I'll get addicted next.

He is making me feel all sorts of feelings, it's my first time you know. All my life I suffered from loneliness, bullying, body shaming. All kinds of those actually, depression and anxiety was never new to me. I got used to it, I never complained because I know our great God has plans for me, much much much more than I could ever imagine.

I can see him smile under the moon's reflection, it made my heart flutter. People that I can entertain or in short "make smile" is just countable. I don't encounter much people, they dislike me in some way but why? I don't even know them nah they're no use so why bother- That's what I always say.

"What did you dreamed about?"

My smile drop.

"We...we can't talk about it if you're-"

I cut him off by holding his arm, still staring into him.

"Weird, it was weird. Faceless people shouting at me, I...I got devoured by fear. They told me to jump of a-a building and j-just end my...life. Bastard, Burden... another typical piece of mother fucking mistak-"

I sobbed but he hugged me causing me to tear out more. We stayed like that for a while, he kept rubbing my back with soothing words coming out of his mouth. This man is really something, things are moving so fast huh. I like it... I like h-

"Shh I'm here, no one will ever say that to you anymore"

I smiled, this was it. The care and attention that I needed. The affection that I longed for, the love...? That I craved. I'm not really sure if love is the right word, hmm maybe it's just pity or affection? Yeah it is not...not love. My heart sunk, I don't know why but I can feel my heart... aching.

"You have done so much P"

I said breaking the touch.

"And I want to do more Kong"

I just looked at him silent.

"Will you let me?"