Leanna Clavelle | COMPLETED

Phase Fourteen

I had already left the building but my mind stayed like it was glued to that floor. My brain went haywire as Gael and that woman occupied my head. The next day, my heart feels heavy. My inside's screaming pain and sadness. I feel betrayed and it hurts.

I'm jealous, I admit. Alam kong wala akong karapatan mag selos dahil wala namang kami. Hindi ko pa naman kasi siya sinasagot pero hindi ko maiwasan makaramdam ng ganito. These emotions are so foreign to me that I feel like I'm going insane from feeling them all at once.

Pilit ko man inaalis sa isipan ay hindi ko magawa lalo na't naaalala ang mukha ng babae. Compared to me, she's more beautiful, sexy, and mature. Hindi malabong mas magustuhan siya ni Gael kesa sa akin.

And if that happens, I'll bleed but I can't do anything about it because it was his heart after all. I can't control it and I'm not holding it even. It'll pain me for sure but I'll let him go still for he's not mine, in the first place.

Tulala lang ako buong klase. I was that bothered that I wasn't able to answer properly an oral recitation.

"Ayos ka lang, Clavelle?" Mayette asked after the dismissal of Mr. Llagas.

Ganoon na ba talaga ako ka tamlay na pati ang aking kaibigan ay napansin iyon? I sighed then plastered a small smile when I looked at her side. I nodded. She gazed at me intently, weighing my every expression.

"May sakit ka ba?"

I shook my head. Parang may mainit na humaplos sa aking puso nang marinig ang salitang iyon galing sa kanya. This time I smiled, really. "Wala akong sakit, Mayette."

That day I also went home. Literally, home.

Nagulat si Kuya Declan nang umuwi ako sa amin. Daddy's not around so it's kinda a big question why I went home.

"Why are you here?" Bungad ni Kuya sa akin pagkatapos kong pag buksan ng pintuan sa aking kwarto.

Instead of answering his question, I hugged him. Nang makita ko siya ay parang nakaramdam ako ng pangugulila. I miss Kuya. I then felt his hand on my back.

"May problema ka ba? You can tell me." he added carefully.

I tightened my hold, finding some comfort in my brother's arms. "Nothing, Kuya. I just really miss home that's all." I said, which is partly true,

Days went and I never bothered to go to the coffee shop. Alam kong makikita ko lang siya doon at bibigat lang lalo ang pakiramdam ko. Umuwi rin ako sa amin dahil paniguradong pupunta siya sa Apartment ko.

I didn't reply to all his texts and ignored his calls. I can't bear hearing his voice without feeling a sting in my heart. Gosh! I really like him! I think I've fallen already.

As time goes by, the pain was slowly replaced by a sour feeling. Ewan ko pero nakakagalit na hindi man lang siya gumawa ng paraan para makita ako. Oo, iniiwasan ko siya pero diba dapat mag effort siya dahil diba nga nanliligaw siya? If he's that sensitive, dapat na sense na niya na may mali!

Hays, ano ba talaga ang gusto mo Clavelle?!

Pre-finals is fast approaching, so I've been busy lately with school. I used that to divert my mind instead of just thinking about Gael.

Another busy day came. Maingay sa classroom dahil wala pa ang teacher namin sa Economics. It's been almost thirty minutes, so I guess, Mr. Olano is absent today. Some of my classmates are busy with their phones, playing mobile legends. Some are just chitchatting while I busy myself with our Practical Research 2.