Leanna Clavelle | COMPLETED

Phase Twenty-Nine

Parang may kumurot sa aking puso at nag alab ng konti ang galit. Bigla akong natauhan at napaisip. Talaga bang nag sasabi ng totoo si Gae? Because if there's really nothing between him and Thalia then why would she text that?

Are they really super close that texting 'I love you' is normal for them? I doubt it.

May mga sumunod pa na mensahe ang dumating bukod doon pero hindi na akong nag abalang basahin pa. Tama na iyong isa. Akala ko pa naman magiging maayos na ulit sa aming dalawa. But I guess, for the second time... I hoped for nothing.

Pero may parte pa rin sa sa akin na gusto kong marinig ang paliwanag ni Gael. Kasi iyon ang wala sa amin noon kaya kami humantong dito. Maybe, I'll let him explain, but not today. Not that I'm mad. I need time to calm myself first because I might say something I'll regret. Ayaw kong mag padalos-dalos. Decisions when mad won't do good. That's why I have to cool down so that I can be rational enough to decide things.

Umalis ako pagkatapos mabasa iyon. Agad akong nag bihis at hindi na nakapag luto. I left him a note on his fridge saying that I have errands to do the reason why I'm off early. Pero ang totoo ay ang ginawa ko lang magdamag ay mag mukmok sa kwarto habang ang utak ay lumilipad na naman.

I didn't reply to his texts. Baka sumabog nalang ako bigla.

But what if... There is really something going on between the two of them. O baka naman si Thalia lang ang may gusto? It's a one-sided love and all along, she's in love with Gael.

Sinabunutan ko ang aking sarili at gumulong sa kama. Mababaliw ako kakatanong sa sarili na hindi ko naman masagot sagot.

That text remained inside my head for days. Hindi tuloy ako makapag concentrate sa klase at hindi pumapasok sa utak ko ang mga pinag-aaralan. Bumagsak pa ako sa quiz dahil lang binabagabag ako ng nung nabasa ko!

Nawala na rin ang galit sa akin pero ang natira nalang ay puro pagdududa. I want to confront Gael but I don't have enough courage to do that because I'm afraid of the possibility that there's really something between them.

I sighed.

"Roselee..."

It's lunchtime and Roselee decided to eat at the canteen. Tinatamad akong umuwi kaya sinamahan ko siya.

"Hmm?"

Her hand was suspended in the air. She looked at me as she chewed slowly the food in her mouth. I gulped.

Kanina ko pa ito pinag-iisipan. Nag dadalawang isip akong mag tanong sa kanya pero baka masiraan ako ng bait kung kikimkimin ko ito.

"May tanong ako." She frowned as if trying to tell me to spill the tea already. "Just a random one."

She nodded. Still waiting for me to speak up.

Kinakabahan ako!

"Hmm..."

"Hmm?" she echoed.

Umayos siya ng upo. Itinabi niya ang kinakain at ibinigay ang buong atensyon sa akin. I blinked my eyes twice. My grip on the utensils tightened, heart started to beat fast as a train can do. I shook my head.

"Uhmm... never mind."

She rolled her eyes.

"Ano nga sabihin mo na?"

Huminga ako ng malalim.

"It's just a random question, okay? Baka isipin mong ako."

She looked at me lazily. "Oo nga. Ramdom question lang at hindi ikaw. Okay na?"