Leanna Clavelle | COMPLETED

Phase Ten

When ecstasy is felt, time runs so fast that you wouldn't even be aware of it. Days turned to weeks, months became years in just a blink of an eye.

Luckily, I survived my eleventh grade at St. Francis of Assisi College. It was tough. However, the knowledge I gained and my achievements for that school year paid for all my sleepless nights of doing PTs.

Sa mga nag daang buwan ay naging masaya ako. Sa bawat pag-uusap namin ni Gael, sa pagkikita namin madalas sa coffee shop ay di ko namalayan na ilang buwan na pala ang lumipas.

Noong una ay medyo naiilang ako sa pakikitungo ni Gael sa kain, para kasi siyang ibang tao. I mean, he became talkative and caring, which I am not used to. Mas sanay ako sa tahimik na nagbabasang Gael at iyong bihira lang ako tapunan ng tingin.

Nabibigla ako minsan sa mga action niya na hindi ako sure kung may ibang kahulugan. His actions can be so perplexing at times that my young heart assumes. Ayaw ko naman talaga mag assume pero hindi ko mapigilan ang sarili. I've come to think of it... he already knew that I liked him, so siguro naman diba kung hindi siya interesado sa akin ay hindi naman siya magpapakita ng motibo?

Oh my God, I should really stop assuming things! Stop overthinking about it Leanna Clavelle! But I can't help it though, especially when my heart is high like it has been showered by ketamine.

I'm already in bed even though it's still almost six in the evening. I'm facing the ceiling as my mind wanders about Gael's world, but it was halted when I heard a knock. Una ay hindo ko ito pinansin dahil baka sa kabilang kwarto iyon pero nang kumatok itong muli ay wala na akong nagawa kundi bumangon at pag buksan ang kung sino mang nasa kabilang bahagi ng pintuan.

My eyes immediately widened and my lips slightly hung open at the sight of Gael. I gulped and my heart became turbulent.

"Hey!" He greeted me gailly. Habang gulantang ako sa kanyang biglaang pag sulpot.

We stared at each other's eyes and I almost got lost in the woods. I shifted my position as my grip on the doorknob tightened and avoided his gaze. I was about to ask why he's here, but the Tupperware he's holding caught my attention. My forehead creased.

"I brought you dinner..." sagot niya sa tanong ng aking mga mata.

Napakurap ako. Ibinalik ko sa kanyang mukha ang mga mata. He smiled at me, making my insides jump in glee. Butterflies in my stomach celebrated and went wild, tickling me. I admit kinikilig ako.

"Ha? S-salamat pero hindi ka na sana nag abala. Diba may klase ka pa?"

"Yeah, but I just really want to drop by to give you this before going to school."

Pagkaalis ni Gael ay para akong lumutang na tila ba lahat ng galaw ko'y ang gaan. Abot langit ang saya kong kumain dahil makakakain ako ng espesyal na pagkain.

I snapped and got woken up in my memories last January when Kuya Declan appeared in front of me on the veranda.

"Tulala ka riyan?" Aniya at umupo na sa harap ko. "Why are you smiling Clavelle? You look like an idiot." He barks into waves of laughter. I pouted and rolled my eyes at him before starting to eat my breakfast.

Summer came, sa bahay lang ako. Hindi rin naman ako mahilig gumala. Kuya keeps on bugging me at home because he wants to have a vacation, but I was enjoying myself in our house. I'm already content staying inside my room while exchanging messages with Gael. Mabuti nalang at hindi na ako pinilit pa ni kuya kaya buong bakasyon ay sa bahay lang talaga ako.

However, sometimes at night, I would always wonder... about what we are. I mean, wala naman siyang sinabi na gusto niya ako, hindi rin siya nanliligaw pero ramdam kong may something. Something special. Or baka naman assuming lang talaga ako sa simula palang?