Leanna Clavelle | COMPLETED

Phase Fifteen

Umawang ng kaonti ang aking labi. Hindi makapaniwala. Iyon lang ba ang narinig niya sa lahat ng mga sinabi ko? Serouisly Gael?.

Despite the heavy air between us, it seems like it isn't for him. Kita ng konti sa kanyang mga mata ang kislap ng kasiyahan. The way the side of his lips rose a bit is kind of contagious.  I frowned and my eyes turned to slit to prove a point.

"I'm not jealous," I said before looking away.

"Uhuh?" The sound of his voice is laced with elation.

I kept my eyes in front and tried my best not to let my roaring heart rule me. I could feel he's staring at me making my insides boom wildly.

"Yes, I'm not."

"Okay... if you say so." He said though I could hear how unconvinced he was.

Hindi ko nalang iyon pinansin at pagod siyang nilingon. "Just please stop with what your planning Gael." I lowly said.

His eyes grew serious and he clenched his jaw. His full attention is on me. Bumagsak ang aking balikat kasama ang aking puso dahil sa mga naisip.

"Ano bang alam mo sa plano ko Clavelle?"

Habang tumatagal ay parang unti unti akong nalulunod sa kanyang mga mata. It's like I was pushed to quicksand and no one was there to help me up. I only have myself to save me, just like only I can rescue myself from all the pain that Gael can bring me.

Kung gusto niya man maglaro, mag laro siya kung hanngang kalian niya gusto pero hindi ko hahayaan na ako ang paglarauan niya. I don't want another round of heartache with someone dear to me.

I've been hurt so many times by the man who I love first and thinking about someone who I think I've fallen hurting me will break me beyond repair.

Silence stretched between us and I find it torture. My heart stings when I remember how he guided that girl inside his unit. How they are glad when they see each other. They look like a couple that's been far away from one another and now back in each other's arms.

They're like in a movie wherein Gael and that girl is the main characters and I'm the one who's a stranger watching them inside the cinema house.

"Please Gael, if you're just playing with me, please stop. I'm not interested."

Muling bumigat ang aking damdamin. I shifted my position and looked at the window for tears are slowly forming in my eyes. I blinked twice to shoo them away.

He called me but I acted like I didn't hear him. Ayokong tumingin sa kanya, mas lalo lang sumasakit ang puso sa tuwing naiisip na baka totoo nga ang hinala ko. Paano kung totoo nga? Naiisip ko pa lang nasasaktan na ako.

Nagkamali ako, dahil sa puntong ito hindi ko na masasalba ang sarili ko dahil siya lang ang makakaligtas sa akin. Huli na't lunod na lunod na ako.

My body shivered when I felt his hand holding mine. "Clavelle, look at me..." he said in a controlled voice.

My heart says to look at him, but my body says no. His grip tightened a bit but slowly let go. Lumabas siya at tinungo ang pintuan banda ko. Our eyes locked once again when he opened the car door wide.

Isiniksik ko ang sarili sa aking upuan nang yumuko siya at inilapit ang mukha sa akin. Inangat niya ang kanyang kanang paa. Ang kanang kamay ay tila harang sa akin at ang habag ang ay muling hinawakan ang magkasalikop kong mga kamay

"Who says I'm playing with you, huh?"

Umaalpas ang kabog ng aking damdamin. I can't seem to breathe properly and I'm afraid he might notice how noisy my heart is. Despite everything, I am feeling, my eyes remained.