i can't be the only one
who fights battles everyday
but doesn't even know
who they're fighting against.
is it me?
or you?
time?
or love?
i'm tired of crying everyday
because i'm never good enough-
for me
and even for you.
i can't be the only one
who feels like they're trapped
with no escape
and no motivation to escape.
i can't be the only one
who can't make simple choices
about who i am
and how i live my life.
i can't be the only one
who's tired of saying goodbyes
of saying i'm sorry
and of telling myself lies.
"it'll get better"
"you'll get there soon"
"they don't hate you"
"they'll change".
but it never gets better, only worse
i never get there, i always get lost
how can they not hate me? when i hate myself?
they don't ever change because you cannot change someone.
i can't be the only one
who craves to feel love
and to feel beautiful
just once in their own skin.
i can't be the only one
who pushes everyone away
when they mean to pull them close
because they are broken and they don't want to hurt others the way they hurt themselves.
i can't be the only one
who's heart is broken
because they let themselves fall for someone
when they said they wouldn't and they did just that.
i can't be the only one
but why does it feel so lonely?
why does it overwhelm me?
how did they handle it?
i know i'm not the only one,
so why does it feel like i am...
i can't be the only one 3/20/21 23:53
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Midnight Thoughts
PoetryJust an average girl trying to fit into a world using only words to describe her soul to others. ••These are random poems that I have thought of before and after the clock strikes midnight. They might not be the best, but you can always check them o...
