Midnight Thoughts

Burned Out

I'm feeling burned out
Like I can't control my head
Nothing makes me happy
And I only feel the dread.

I've tried homemade remedies
I've tried listening to the rain
But the silence keeps me captivated
Only embracing in the pain.

I can't remember anymore
What I'm supposed to do
Because my life felt set
But now I'm not with you.

Quite strange of me
To picture you inside my head
To dream of countless hours of happiness
When all the lies were said.

But how can I go
From being happy with you
To hearing you leave me
After I kissed you?

How can I move on
When my heart felt complete
But as soon as you weren't near
I fell into defeat?

I never thought
That love would come along
To bring me on this joyous ride
As I listened to your songs.

Whatever I felt for you
Was intense to put it light
It awaken something inside of me
Brought back my view of life.

I had felt hopeless and lost
I was struggling to survive
But you knocked on my doors
And for some reason, I chose to let you inside.

It's rare for me to get close
To anyone else
When pain and envy
Have been brought by themselves.

They had wrecked me
And left me in pieces
But you helped me continue on
Despite all the mess.

You encouraged me beyond words
To live for what I want
With just one look into your eyes
I saw what you sought.

You too wanted to be free
And happy and whole
You wanted to be sure
When you thought of the word "home".

And I would wish
For you to be safe
That one day when the time was right
You'd return to me.

I cannot explain much further
Everything you made me feel
But I will continue to wish for you
So that I may see you again.

Until then
As hard as I try to not give in
My soul is tired
And I'm burned out from within.

Burned Out 8/11/21 21:39