They tell me that I'm beautiful,
Then they shame me,
They tell me that they love me,
Then they hate me,
They tell me that they'll stay,
Then they leave me,
But as soon as I relapse,
They try to save me,
They tell me "Hold your head up,"
It's not that easy,
They call me "fake" and all these names,
Then they try to say they're only kidding,
This is a reoccurring nightmare,
Forget the happy daydream.
I'm hurting deep inside,
But no one else sees,
They're all too oblivious to notice,
That I'm truly not being me,
It's getting harder to pretend,
Pretend that I'm happy,
With all this pain,
How will I stay sane?
I won't, but that's okay,
Nobody cares anyway.
There's pain inside my head,
There's voices shouting at me,
It's unbearable at times,
For I just want to be happy,
But if I'm finally happy, will I forget,
That I am only aware of the pain that has settled deep within,
Will I forget what my sadness feels like,
My true self,
Or will I be better yet,
Something that I've always dreamt?
I'm hurting deep inside,
But no one else sees,
They're all too oblivious to notice,
The real, true me.
Pain 9/4/19 22:53
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Midnight Thoughts
PoesiaJust an average girl trying to fit into a world using only words to describe her soul to others. ••These are random poems that I have thought of before and after the clock strikes midnight. They might not be the best, but you can always check them o...
