Midnight Thoughts

Hello, It's Me

Hello, it's me,
I hope you're doing well,
I hope you're happy,
And I hope everything is swell.

Hello, it's me,
I wish I could tell you,
Everything on my mind,
Everything that I think.

Hello, it's me,
With time, the pain has increased,
The worry has gotten worse,
And the guilt most definitely hasn't decreased.

Hello, it's me,
I've been wondering how to cope,
With everything-
My emotions, the prolonged pain.

Hello, it's me,
I can no longer see the light,
For darkness has corrupted my skies,
And left them without visibility to my sight.

Hello, it's me,
It hurts so bad,
Eating is no longer a priority,
When it's you who's driving me mad-

With love,
With hope,
With fear,
And with guilt.

Hello, it's me,
I no longer know,
If I am greeting you,
Or if I am greeting guilt itself.

Hello, it's me,
I'm sorry for it all,
I'm sorry for how it played about,
I'm sorry for everything that happened in that hall.

Hello, it's me,
I wish to tell you,
All the words I never said,
But yet, still wish you knew.

Hello, it's me,
I've been feeling sick,
A feeling of hatred for my own skin,
A feeling of betrayal deep within.

Hello, it's me,
I wonder if you care,
Of how I act and carry myself,
When you're hundreds of miles away, over there.

Hello, it's me,
You're constantly on my mind,
And when I'm falling in distress,
You're always my lifeline.

Hello, it's me,
You calm my thoughts,
You calm my anxiety,
You act as a shelter; my rock.

Hello, it's me,
You pull me out,
Of stress and struggle,
And out of doubt.

Hello, it's me,
You have become,
The reason for my smile,
When otherwise, there is none.

Hello, it's me,
The world seems chaotic,
And since you left,
My life seems empty and hopeless.

Hello, it's me,
I wish to tell you these things,
I wish they transfer to your brain,
Whenever and if you think of me.

Hello, it's me,
I hope that you're doing well,
I hope that you're happy,
I hope you are swell.

I hope you haven't had,
The side-effects as me,
The heartbreak, the pain,
And don't forget the misery.

Hello, it's me,
I miss you more than ever,
I miss the happiness I felt with you,
I haven't felt it in forever.

Hello, it's me,
Words don't come easy,
But right now my heart is hurting,
And my pain seems never-ending.

Hello, it's me,
With tears in my eyes,
My voice, it cracks,
Because I never got to say goodbye.

Oh please come back!
I wish for you,
I wish to see you one last time,
I wish I didn't lose-

My love,
My motivation,
My hope,
And my determination.

Right now, I sit and wonder,
At all the silly things,
Right now, I sit and wonder,
Do you think of me?

Hello, it's me,
Without you, life is dull,
You brought the color to my world,
And the peace to my soul.

Hello, it's me,
If it's true,
Then I will find a way,
To make it back to you.

Until then,
I'll see you in my dreams,
I'll see you in my thoughts,
And in the songs I sing.

Hello, It's me.

Hello, It's me 3/13/20 17:37