Midnight Thoughts

Poison

As the poison hit my lips
And rolled down my throat
I knew that this was it
As I watched her gloat.

My body was overpowered
By the weight of her drug
The toxins in my body
Left me motionless on her rug.

I tried to scream and ask for help
I tried to plea and shout
But "I'm sorry"
Were the only words to come out.

She looked down at me
And saw my pity
I was always taller in height
But she was grander in her "Problem City."

A city is a way to describe the issues
That barricaded the exits
A metropolis of lies
Woven into the direct "sessions."

If I even thought for one second about myself
Because to her I never truly existed
She'd snatch my attention
And focus it where her problems were listed.

Did I even really matter
Or was this just a scheme?
A plan to crack who I was before
And leave me broken at the seams.

This poison is spreading
And to my heart it goes
It branches at the arteries
And ever so surely it slows.

Inside, my heart is breaking into pieces
But outside I'm still standing
Internally the poison won
But outwardly the attention is still demanding.

And just when I thought I was finished
With this dose of poison
Suddenly I'm being given
Another vile of destruction.

It appears this poison is never-ending
Always showing up when I start to hope
Just the thought of being clear from her
Makes her shove down more "dope."

She took away the ability
To view things for myself
So eventually I gave up
And only tried to help.

But one day came
When she forgot to give me my dose
And my trauma came back
Knocking as a host.

Finally I could see
Just what she had done
How I was manipulated
Into thinking she was the only one.

But I have problems too
And they're just as valid
The way she had tricked my mind
Showed me that I've had it.

My mind belongs to me
And nobody else
So I will piece myself together
And deal with the bruises and welts.

Her drugs tore up my insides
Where the poison seeped in
My mind was the battlefield
That the poison held destruction.

But the poison was never liquid
Never bottled
Never turned

No, the poison was her actions and words that mentally destroyed the girl.

Poison 5/2/22 01:15