°𝘽𝙚𝙨𝙩 𝙛𝙧𝙞𝙚𝙣𝙙𝙨°

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Isabella woke up wrapped around Jaden's half naked body. Her eyes went wide as she realised that she had to leave without him noticing. She lifted the covers a little bit and saw that she was naked and Jaden was wearing his boxers. She finally remembered what happened the previous night and cursed under her breath. She slowly stood up and put on her underwear and quickly put on her dress too. She grabbed her phone and shoes and quickly got out of the room, forgetting about the ring on her finger...

As soon as she got out of the room she groaned at herself. "God I'm so fucking stupid!" she groaned as she remembered that her room is practically Jaden's room. She turned around and got back in the room. She quickly took off her dress and put it in her closet with her shoes and then put her underwear in the laundry box. She sighed at herself and put on some sweats and a random crop top, lying on the bed next to Jaden, going through her phone.

Jaden slowly opened his eyes after about an hour.He groaned slightly and run his hand through his hair. He groaned again and rubbed his face and chest to wake himself up (God it's so fucking hot when guys run their hands on their chest like- fuck meee- k bye). Then he noticed that he was shirtless, which was not weird for him, but he felt like he needed to check if he was naked or not. He quickly checked under the covers to see himself in only an underwear. He narrowed his eyebrows and turned to the girl. "Why- why am I naked?" he asked. "Good morning to you too" she chuckled and he rolled his eyes. "Why am I naked?" "You're not naked, you're wearing an underwear" "And why am I wearing ONLY an underwear?" he asked and the girl sighed. "You warmed up and took off your clothes, cause you were drunk, y'know" she said and he nodded still confused.

"So... we didn't have sex, right?" he asked and she turned to him shaking her head. "Nope..." she said and turned back to her phone. "O- okay..." he said and stood up walking in the bathroom. He locked the door behind him and started quietly crying. He was mad at himself for letting her go like that. He needed her more than any other time in his life, he needed her... because he lost her. He couldn't even make it clear in his mind. He just knew that he needed her, not only sexually, but what he needed was to feel her close to him, kiss her, hug her... he hated the fact that he made her not want to be around him...

He walked out of the bathroom after he had washed his face and looked at the dressed girl. He narrowed her eyebrows as he watched her putting her shoes on. "Where are you going?" he asked as she stood up and grabbed her phone. "I'll go see a friend" she said as she walked up to the door. "Oh, okay, bye-" he was cut off by the door closing behind her. He just stood there looking at the closed door. He clenched his jaw and then sucked on his teeth. He tried to act like he didn't care anymore. But he did care. A lot... And he couldn't do many things about it.

He quickly grabbed his phone and got out of the room. He ran downstairs and then out of the house, getting into his car. He drove to the familiar place and got out of the car. He pressed on the doorbell and when the door opened the girl narrowed her eyebrows. "Please, let me in. I need to talk to you" He said and she sighed nodding. He walked in and she closed the door behind them. "I know that you told me to not run back to you when I break up with Bell... But I need you right now. If you want me to leave just-" she cut him off by kissing him passionately. They kept making out as she led them to her bedroom. He pushed her down to the bed but then pulled away. "Fuck... this is not right, Mads... Im taking advantage of your feelings-" "I love it when you take advantage of me" she smirked as she started undoinfg his belt...

"Fuck..." he groaned as he collasped next to her. "God, this felt so good..." she moaned as she rolled on top of him and wrapped her arms around his torso. Jaden looked down and awkwardly put his hand on her back, 'hugging her back'. Mads slowly let go off him and looked down. "You just wanted sex right?" she asked and Jaden sighed. "You don't have to say anything, I know that I'm the one who accepted this... And i knew that this is what you wanted... I just- nevermind let's just not talk..." she said and Jaden shook his head pulling her close to him.

"I'm sorry... I'm sorry, I hurt you..." "Jaden it's fine-" "It's not... I know that you cheated when we were together... But you love me... it doesn't matter if you made a mistake, cause you love me... you love me and I just push you away" he said and she started crying. He pulled her even closer and started stroking her hair. "And I shouldn't have done it... cause I know exactly what it feels like... I know exactly how much it hurts when the person you love pushes you away and- you're trying to stay there and make them feel all this love and they keep pushing you away..." he said and she pulled him closer. "They keep pushing you away and you keep loving them... and when they need you... they come back ot you and use you... and you let them use you cause- cause you love it... you love it when they- when they show any type of interest... and then they leave again... and you keep loving them... Cause you- you need that little bit of love that they show you that moment... you need it..." he said as he looked at the ceiling.

"I hate myself... I've done to you what I hate the most..." he said and she shook her head. "Jaden it's not like that-" "It is, Mads.... I used you... I only dated you to get over Bell... and you fell for me and I kept ignoring it but i said 'i love you'... those words... those words hurt the most when you don't mean them... And- I care about you, Mads... I really do. I just- don't love you- I mean I do but i also do not in that way but-... it's hard to explain..." he said and she nodded. "i know what you mean..." she mumbled. "It's okay, though... I always knew that you loved Isabella a lot more than me..." she said while looking down. "I shouldn't have made you feel like this, though..." he said and she sighed. "Maybe but... now it's done, we can't do anything..." she said and he nodded.

"What happened with you and Isabella?" Mads asked as she kept stroking his chest. "Do you really want to know?" he asked chuckling. "Yeah" she replied. "I mean- you're not here for no reason" she laughed. "Yeah... we basically broke up around- god, it's actually been three weeks?" he told himself as he ran his hand through his hair. "She broke up with me the night I was going to ask her to be my girlfriend..." "Ouch" she mumbled. "Yeah... I lost it... I lost my mind, I went crazy"  he said and she pressed her lips together. "I just- I wanted to kill myself I wanted to drive off a clif- I didn't even know what to do! I freaked out, I just- I couldn't realize that it was actually happening" he said and she nodded kissing his shoulder. "But then I kind of calmed out... when I realized that- she never loved me" he chuckled. "She never did, she just thought of me as the annoying neighbour that she had to take care of because he lost his parents... She never loved me-" "She does love you Jaden... She does-" "No, Mads... she doesn't... and it hurts" he said and she hugged him tighter.

"We can use each other... to get what we want" she said and he turned to her confused. "You want sex... I kind of want that too... we can work like this..." "No mads, we can't use each other... cause you will not use me, you will love me, and i'll use you" he chuckled. "Come on Jaden... it doesn't matter if I love you or not anymore... We'll just be some fuck buddies type of shit... just sex and fun, not serious stuff... I'm not ready for that and I bet thet you're not either" she said and he placed a stroke of hair behind her ear. "Maybe we could be fuck buddies" he said and she smiled. "And you know, fuck buddies talk about sex all the time" she smirked as she kissed his lips. "Mhm, yeah?" he asked against her lips. "Yes, and they also have it all the time" she whispered as she got on top of him and lined him up to her entrance...

Don't kill me :D