°𝘽𝙚𝙨𝙩 𝙛𝙧𝙞𝙚𝙣𝙙𝙨°

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We got home and as soon as we got in I grabbed Jaden's hand and led him in the bedroom.
"Now tell me WHY THE HELL DID YOU DO THAT?!" I yelled and he looked down.
"I'm sorry Bell-"
"No Jaden! Fuck your sorry! Where did you find it?" I asked.
"What?"
"Don't okay it dumb! Where did you find the weed!" I said loudly.
"I- in Josh's..."
"Josh wouldn't give you if you were like that, plus he told me that you were already like that when you got to his house. So tell me before I start searching your stuff" I said and he looked down.
"In my nightstand..." He said pressing his lips together. I walked up to it and opened the drawers searching for it.
"Oh my God Jaden" I whispered. "Why?!"
"I- I just had it here and- Bryce wanted me to keep it and I- I couldn't help it..."
"Jaden! We've talked about this! You're not. Allowed. To get. Drugs!" I said and he looked down.
"I- I know Bell but-"
"You said that you wouldn't! Jaden this shit is not funny!" I said tearing up. "You can't just say that you're over it and then start doing it again!"
"I didn't start doing it! I just used some once! It's not that bad..." He said.
"Jaden it is! You- you told me that you'd never do it again!"
"I know!" He said now crying. "I know okay?! I don't know why I just did it! I needed it!-"
"Yes! That's what gets you addicted Jaden! You needed it!" I said and he looked down.
"I'm sorry" he cried and I hugged him.
"Jaden I'm worried about you... You know what happened the last time you were doing drugs..." I said tearing up. He put his hand on my cheek and lifted my head so I would look at him.
"Bell, don't worry, I'm not going that again... I don't want to get you hurt anymore okay?"
"Jaden I'm not saying it because I don't want to get hurt. I'm saying it because I don't want you to be like that. It was awful Jaden" I said. He looked down and I shook my head.

Flashback

"Jaden?" I called as I got home. No answer. "Jaden?" I called again. He must be out. I walked in the bedroom and I heard crying from the bathroom. "Jae?" I asked while walking closer. "You in there?"
"Bell, please don't get in" he sniffled and I heard him standing up, but them I heard him talking back down.
"Jaden, I'm coming" I said opening the door. "What is wrong bubs-" it was awful. "J- Jaden" I cried walking up to him. He was watching his arms as blood was coming out of all the cuts on them. He had a little bottle of pills next to him, and a turned on cigarette. "Jaden..." I cried and stepped on the cigarette so it would turn off. I picked up a towel and started the water so it would get wet.
"Bell I'm sorry-"
"Why? Just- just tell me why?!" I yelled and he looked down. "Why?!" I yelled again, now crying. He didn't say anything he just kept staring at his cuts. I got close to him and kicked all the stuff he had near him away. "These shits are killing you!" I yelled and he looked down crying quietly. I kneeled down in front of him and started cleaning up his blood. He hissed and I glared at him. "Shut up" I said and continued cleaning him up. He kept crying quietly as I cleaned him up. "Why Jaden" I said again and he shook his head.
"I don't know..."
"That's just bullshit" I said and picked up the bottle with the pills. "How many if these did you get?" I asked and he looked down. "Jaden don't fucking play with me right now. Tell me. How many?!"
"T- Two..."
"Two?!" I cried and face palmed myself. "You're unbelievable" I said and threw the bottle across the room. He flinched and I looked at him. I cupped his cheek with my hand. "Jaden, why?" I whispered crying once again.
"I- I'm sorry Bell... I just- I can't do this... I want to die" he cried and I shook my head hugging him tight. This boy is so hurt.
"How many cigarettes?" I asked still in the hug. I pulled away and looked in his eyes.
"F- four... That was the fourth" he said and I shook my head again.
"Jaden, why didn't you tell to me? Why did you do all these? Why?" I asked and he looked down.
"I didn't want to get you hurt..."
"Jaden... I want you to be safe okay? How am I supposed to know that you won't do anything like this ever again huh? How can I not be worried about you?" I said and he looked down.
"You're right... I'm sorry..." He said and I nodded.
"Just please don't do anything like this again Jaden..." I cried.
"I won't, I promise" he said and hugged me tight. "I promise"