°𝘽𝙚𝙨𝙩 𝙛𝙧𝙞𝙚𝙣𝙙𝙨°

050

Both, Jaden and Isabella, felt those shivers of excitement running down their spines. They couldn't believe that they got to feel each other again. Their lips moved in sync perfectly, just like every time. It wasn't a rough or passionate kiss. There was passion, but they didn't show it in the kiss. It was a sweet kiss. A long, sweet, loving kiss. Jaden rubbed his thumb against her skin as he cupped her cheek. He wiped away her tears as they kept kissing. She placed her hands on his cheeks too. The kiss was still sweet. After some minutes they both pulled away and just looked at each other. Jaden smiled up at Isabella as he placed a stroke of hair behind her ear. Isabella just shot him a smile for a second, then dropped it again and lay her head on his chest. She started tracing his tattoos with her finger. She didn't feel like smiling. She couldn't smile. She felt destroyed. Jaden felt awful. The girl he loved so much, was finally in his arms, but she couldn't be happy. He couldn't make her happy, cause she felt awful. Cause she was completely shuttered inside.

"I feel so disgusting" she whispered and he shook his head as he started stroking her hair.
"I know that telling you not to won't help... But you really aren't disgusting, baby... You're amazing, beautiful, talented, kind-"
"Jaden... I really don't feel like receiving complements right now... I just feel disgusting. And I bet you feel it too. You can't touch me and kiss me and all and not feel it-" she started but he cut her off.
"Baby, baby, baby... What are you talking about? You're not disgusting, stop thinking like that about yourself..." He said kissing her forehead.
"Jaden, I just- it's awful, I feel so- so disgusting... You don't understand, you just- you just can't understand" she said almost crying. "It's just- all the things that- he made me hate myself" she cried and Jaden kissed her head again.
"Shh baby" he said and kept kissing her and stroking her head. He didn't know what to do or say. "I'm so sorry baby... It's gonna get better, I promise-"
"How the fuck is it gonna get better, Jae?!" She cried and he hugged her tighter. They just stayed there in silence for some minutes. He had started tearing up too.
"Is there... Anything I could do to help you?" He said and she shrugged.
"I don't know... I just- I don't know" she cried.
"Hey, it's okay... I mean- it's not but- I'll help you in any way I can, alright?" He said stroking her hair. "I can- I can make you breakfast and lunch and dinner and- we can watch movies together? I can spend the whole day with you... I can even take you shopping! You love shopping! I'll let you buy whatever you want, okay? We can even get ice cream after and-" he was cut off by Isabella kissing him.
"God damn it how can you be so fucking nice to me" she cried. "I love you" she said and hugged him tight, making him chuckle.
"I love you too, Bell" he smiled. "So are you down for shopping?" He chuckled and she giggled.
"Maybe... But another day..."
"Okay" he said while stroking her hair. "Whatever makes you happy, baby" he whispered and pecked her lips.

"Jaden, I just... I'm sorry... I feel like I've made you feel horrible these past two months and... I also wasted yesterday... All you did was think about me and it was so shitty cause it's an important day for you and-"
"Bell, baby... You didn't waste yesterday. I actually- yes, it was a horrible day, but we found each other again... And I don't mean only as lovers, but as best friends too..." Jaden said as he stroke her hair. "It was also... I forgot about the pain... I forgot about my pain and focused on you... I'm not saying that I liked it. There was a different kind of pain, that somehow hurt more... But- anyway... Don't feel like you 'wasted' yesterday... You didn't" he said and she smiled slightly for a second before dropping the smile again.
"Okay" she mumbled and kept staring out at nowhere. Seeing her like that killed him. She couldn't even smile and it hurt him so much...
"Baby... I love you" he said and kissed her head.
"I love you too Jae..." She whispered kissing his neck. "More than anything" she said and Jaden pressed his lips together. Now he gets it, he believes it. She would tell him all the time that she loves him more than anything and he wouldn't believe her, but now, he knew what she did for him, and felt horrible for not believing her.