°𝘽𝙚𝙨𝙩 𝙛𝙧𝙞𝙚𝙣𝙙𝙨°

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Jaden spent the night in the hotel room with Isabella. He didn't want to leave her alone. He couldn't leave her alone. He had mixed feelings. He was confused, mad, scared... He couldn't accept that his other half had been raped, that she was in a toxic a relationship.

The next day the doctors let them go home, after Isabella talked to the police about what had happened between her and Jason. She didn't tell Jaden though. She wanted to tell him when they would be home, so he would be calmer.

"Here you go, baby" he said as he let her on the bed. He had carried her from the car upstairs in bridal style.
"I told you you wouldn't have to carry me" she said as she lay on the bed.
"I know but- I wanted to" the boy said as he lay next to her. She cuddled herself in his chest and gulped.
"Jaden... I-"
"If you're not ready to tell me... It's okay, I can wait..." He said. He knew that he couldn't actually wait, but he wouldn't pressure her.
"No... I am ready... I just- I don't know if you are ready to hear it-"
"I'm always ready to hear whatever you have to tell me, always" Jaden said and looked down at the girl making her smile sadly. Tears started forming into her eyes.
"He was being abusive, Jae. He was- not just that... He- he threatened me and- it was- at first I didn't believe him but then he- he has a gun and he showed me and I was so scared Jaden" she broke down crying. Jaden had literally freaked out from what he just heard, but decided to not upset her more.
"Shhh baby, it's over now, you're safe..." He mumbled kissing her forehead. "It's okay, I'm here"
"He- no I'll-" she started gagging on her tears.
"Shhh baby" he said and kissed her head again.
"Jaden I- I never wanted to break up with you!" She cried while gagging on her tears. "He- he- when we were together he- he told me that he wanted me back" she said and the boy nodded. "But I said that I was with you and didn't want him! But then he said- he said that if I don't fuck him he- he would hurt you" she cried and the boy hugged her tighter. "I didn't believe him but then he fucking showed me his gun and I freaked out!" She cried. Jaden really didn't know what to do at that point. He couldn't handle what he heard. "I- he forced me to suck his dick and- then to fuck him and- I told him that I'd be okay with this as long as I wouldn't have to break up with you. Cause I knew that- that you wouldn't be ready for it! You wouldn't handle it!" She cried. "Then he- he told me to break up with you and- I couldn't disobey him cause he would fucking kill you! I was scared Jaden! I was so scared!" The girl cried. "Do you now get it?! I never fucking wanted to break up with you! I never wanted to hurt you! I never stopped loving you! Just like I always told you!" She almost screamed.

Jaden felt lost. He couldn't believe that he had been arguing with her and making her feel bad for hurting him when she had been going through all of that. He told her that he hates her so many times... And the only thing she wanted was to save him.

He couldn't hold it anymore. He let all the tears pour out of his eyes while still hugging the girl tight. He kissed her head and started now fully crying.
"I'm so sorry baby... I'm so sorry... I made you feel awful-"
"Jaden I- I am sorry! I could've told you earlier but I was scared and it was awful and then-"
"Shhh, it's okay baby... Its okay" he mumbled kissing her forehead. "Do you want to continue?"
"Yeah..." She mumbled and cleared her throat. "He... He told me that we had to announce that were together and- I don't know... I don't know if it was really a relationship... He just- he didn't want me to spend time with you and- he would often beat me up or hit me for no reason and then- force me to have sex and-" she broke down crying again.
"Shhh baby, I'm here" he mumbled again. He didn't know what else he was supposed to say.
"I- I hated it all but I couldn't tell you and I also couldn't stay away from you!" She said. "I- I convinced him that I had to go to your birthday party- wait that's before we even announced it to y'all" she cried. "I can't even think straight, it's crazy!-"
"Baby, calm down, it's fine, I get it... You don't have to stress over this anymore... It's over" he said stroking her hair.
"He- I told him that I had to come so he wouldn't suspect that I was getting abused. He- he agreed and- I was so happy that night cause- we were together and..." She looked down and started fidgeting her fingers. "We um... We made love and um..."
"What?! He had sex and you didn't tell me?!" He said kind of mad.
"Jaden- no! First of all, I could tell you cause- you would get more hopes... Then- we didn't have sex, okay? He fucking made love to each other. It's different... We just- I fucking loved it!" She cried. "We showed each other our love and it was fucking perfect and then- you asked me to be your girlfriend with the ring and I said yes cause I wanted to feel it all!" She cried harder. "You told me that- the night I broke up with you, you were going to ask me to be your girlfriend... And I- I was so mad at myself..." She cried.
"Baby, baby, baby, calm down, love... You didn't know, you weren't okay... You didn't have to know..." Jaden said and kissed her forehead again. He rubbed her back trying to make her calm down.
"Last night was a fucking nightmare..." She said and he looked down at her. "I- he was so mad and- I don't know why" she cried softly. "He just started- he just- he just pushed me on the bed and tied me and- I couldn't do anything" she cried. "There was- there was- it was him and- those ropes and- the vibrator- and the gun and I just- I didn't know what to do!" She cried. Jaden held the girl closer and kept kissing her forehead. "Jae he- he fucked me with- with the gun-" she cried.
"Baby, baby, calm down... Oh my god" he groaned and pulled her even closer.

"J- Jaden I- I" she stopped to take some breaths from crying. "I was- I'm- I'm so sorry Jaden... I made you feel awful- and I wasn't there for you and- wait..." She paused herself. "Wait, no no no, fuck!" She yelled and started crying again.
"What's wrong baby-" Jaden started confused but the girl cut him off by telling again.
"I can't fucking believe that I- I fucking forgot! How could I forget?! It's so important for you and- I'm always there and- and now- oh my god, fuck!" She kept crying and Jadens look softened as he realised what she was talking about. She was mad that she forgot about the previous day. The eighth year from his parents' death. He wasn't mad. After what he had heard, after knowing what she's been through... He wasn't mad about her forgetting. She was though... "How could I fucking forget!" She screamed at herself. "Jaden- Jaden, oh my god! I'm so sorry I- I don't- I didn't-" she broke into tears again as she caressed his cheek. "I always- I'm always there and now I- I wasn't and- oh my god!" She cried harder. Jaden just pulled her into a hug but she pushed away and started punching the air and the bed. "I'm such a fucking slut! How could I forget! I'm such a worthless piece of shit, God damn it!" She screamed and started pulling on her hair.
"Baby, baby, baby, calm down, I'm not mad-"
"Jaden! Please don't leave me! I'm so sorry I- oh my god what am I even doing I fucking forgot and I'm expecting you to forgive me?! Fuck! Jaden I- I didn't want it I- I love you, please don't-"
"Baby! I'm not mad. Bell, sweetheart please calm down, I can't see you like this, please..." He almost cried too. "I'm not mad, okay? I- I want you to be alright. That's all I want. Fuck everything else okay? Fuck March 10th. Who cares? Does anyone care? No. All I care about is you" he said and kissed her nose, hugging her tight again.

The girl finally calmed down. She was still crying, but she wasn't screaming anymore.
"I hate myself" she mumbled.
"Don't, baby. None of this is your fault. We can leave this all behind, okay? We- we can try, together, baby. I won't leave your side ever again" he spoke into her ear, making her relax a lot more. She just nodded and pecked her forehead. "You says all of these to the police earlier right?" He asked and she nodded. "Then don't worry, baby. It's all over, it's over" he spoke while stroking her hair. "I love you baby" he said and kissed her head. "I'm so glad that you're okay, you're so so strong" he said. "You were ready to give your whole life away for me, you have no idea how much I hate this but- oh my god" he said and pulled her even closer. She just stayed there, still crying quietly. She had started to calm down, though. "Forget everything I said... Forget it all. I know that you love me. God- how could I even think of the opposite" he said while stroking her hair. "I love you, Bell... I love you... it's all over now, I'm here..." He said and she nodded but kept looking down.
"J- Jae..." She said and he nodded.
"Yeah baby?" He said and looked down at her. He slightly smiled at the girl and she also looked up at him. He could see the pain in her red glossy eyes.
"I um- I know that- I know that you probably want us together but- Jaden I can't do this right now... I can't give you what you want and-"
"Shh, baby, slow down" he said as the girl spoke with almost one breath with shutters between. "Baby... I don't want anything from you. I just want you. Here. With me. That's all I want. But of course, if you need space, I can give it to you" he said softly.
"Jae, no I- I don't need space I just... Jaden I won't want to have sex for- god knows how much... And if we date-"
"If we date, what?" He said. "Dating doesn't only mean sex. I can be with you without fucking you. It will be very cute and perfect actually" he said and she sighed.
"Jaden... It's not that easy... You know that you'll want it and I won't be able to give it to you" she said.
"Bell... I know that I love sex and all but, having you will be literally feeling the 'gap'. I can wait for you, until you're ready, no matter how long it will take" he said and she looked down.
"I don't know Jae... I mean- I do trust you and I know that you'll wait but... I still feel like- like I don't let you have what you want..."
"Bell... If I can be with you... I will be the happiest man alive... I don't want anything else" he said. "I love you" he said as he caressed her cheek and slowly leaned in.
"I love you too" she said and they both closed their eyes, as their lips connected...

Do y'all love me again now?