Stray Kids Oneshots

🖤I Never Told You What I Do For A Living (Seunglix)

I don't think I can go too long without writing something dark. Also, I've been writing a lot and have many more ideas that have come to mind.

Anyways, this story is based on the song I Never Told You What I Do for a Living by My Chemical Romance. It's one of their heavier and darker songs, though the whole album itself is dark since it's literally about a man who makes a deal with the devil to kill 1,000 evil men to see his dead lover, so... And of course, I had to choose an adorable ship for this story. We love a good contrast!

This is another short one. Though I do like this idea, and I might want to make it longer in the future. We'll see.

T/W: mentions of murder and suicide.

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My clothes and skin were covered in blood. Thankfully, I was smart enough to remember to bring a change of clothes with me. I quickly removed the blood-stained clothes from my body and replaced them with the clean ones. I was able to make a small fire and burn the old clothes so as not to leave my trace.

I got back in my car and looked through my book, recounting the names. This is what I had to do as it was my end of the bargain. This was the only way that I'd be able to see Felix again. If doing this meant I could see him again, then so be it.

After I finished cleaning up the mess that I had created, I grabbed a pen from the center console in my car to write down the name of the man that I just slaughtered, adding him to the list. As I looked through the names of all the people that were now gone and sent to hell because of me, I tried to push back my guilt. Just because they were evil doesn't mean that it was easier to kill them. Of course, you wouldn't expect Lucifer to be the kindest of people when it came to deals.

One thousand evil men.

That was my task. To kill one thousand evil men and send them to hell. I'm sure the demon king on the other end of the bargain enjoyed the torment that I was going through. This was probably one of his favorite past times, sitting on his throne, watching as the people he made deals with slowly go insane.

As I looked at the pages with the names and counted how many there were, I realized I only had one more. One more person, and then I could see Felix again. All I had to do was figure out who it was and where they were.

I began to think about our deal. It was the devil, after all. I don't think I could ever spend enough time actually thinking about the deal that I had made and whether it was worth it or not. When I started out, seeing Felix again was completely worth the lives of the thousand people I was going to kill. As the deal stated, they had to be evil, so it didn't put too much of a toll on my mind when I got rid of the scum of the earth one by one. But now, after I've killed 999 people, some of which weren't too evil or were only evil in their past and had changed, it can be understandable why I would want to rethink the deal.

Something that always helped ease my mind after offing anyone was knowing that stain marks you forever. Your past never leaves you. If you were evil in your past, you're still evil no matter how much you've changed in the eyes of the devil. He is not forgiving.

And then it dawned on me. I knew who the last person was.

This was how I was to be reunited with Felix again.

It was my turn.

I was the 1,000th evil man to be killed.

I've always been taught that killing oneself was the ultimate sin that cannot be forgiven since you cannot ask for forgiveness. It is murder against yourself. Once you're dead, you can't ask to be forgiven.

I was evil. I have committed murder over 900 times, about to be 1,000. It doesn't matter if the person I killed was evil or not, they were still a person and I condemned them to an eternity of torture. I stained myself. Just as those other people that I murdered were stained from their past, so was I. The blood on my hands was much greater than any of the people that I murdered. This was what I deserved.

I wasn't sure if this was my punishment or my escape to bliss. I was going to die, but I was going to see Felix again. That was the deal, at least. When I made the deal, I hadn't thought about how we were going to be reunited, I just knew that we were. But now I know how.