FOR GOD SAKE KITA SHINSUKE! || KITA SHINSUKE [COMPLETED]

42: why me?

     Standing by the window, Ayumu held her phone tight in her hand. She kept on glancing towards the name contact that displayed on her screen phone, wondering should she continued by connecting the line- calling him or not. It just by a single tap on the icon, the contact between two lines would connected but she hesitated. Should she? Should not she? Then, she threw her gaze at the outside view.

    "If ya wanna call him, just go on. What make ya stop?"

    Ayumu turned around, finding Kita finally entered insideㅡthe discussion room; the room they used for their mentor mentee class.

    "Ya finally here." She smiled, sliding her phone inside her school blazer pocket and went to her seat. Kita nodded as he closed the door behind him, and walked towards where Ayumu was. Putting his bag on the table beside Ayumu's and picked up a chair, settling it across of the table Ayumu sat herself at. Then, he took his seat.

    Kita looked at her, waiting for her words. Ayumu thought about shrugging the topic already but Kita's curiosity eyes as he looked at her, she could not ignored those.

   "Nah~ it's fine I guess. He will call me later or sooner. Since, Tsumu and Samu betrayed me with having good bond with Iwa-nii and Too-nii behind me, the two might be know about us already. And knowing Iwa-nii and Too-nii, they would tell the team about this. Yeah, I closed to them right...and they will never forget about telling Kageyama either. So, let's just wait." Ayumu smiled.

    "What make ya choose me?" Kita suddenly asked.
    "Ya really ask me that?" Ayumu stifled a tender laugh. "I thought we not going to talk about it."
    "We need to talk about it." Kita said. " I don't wanna ya force yerself to be with me."

    Ayumu smoothened her face with a smile but she wasn't looking at Kita. Placing her hands on the table, fiddled nothing on the surface, she shook her head.

    "I take the relationship I was in seriously, Kita. No matter how confuse I am about my feelings, if I don't wanna ya, then am not going to choose ya." She said. "I don't know what were ya thinking about me and Kageyama, but to make it long short explainationㅡyes, I like him for more than three years I guess. Most of the people that I closed with at Miyagi, they always mistook me and Kageyama have a thing inbetween. They said me and Kageyama were suit with one another. Not only that too, as they were saying that, they did mentioned how obvious Kageyama's feelings towards me which I know if I confess to him, he will not reject."

    Ayumu's fingers somehow found them fiddled with Kita's longs fingers. Her eyes were looking down on the fingers instead of into Kita's eyes.

    "I am not a person who will make a first move. So, I am waiting for him. Perhaps, he could tell that I like him too and of course I am not going to reject him. He is the one I like, right. But, he didn't. Ya know, what can I say, eventhough if we seem noticed the gesture, the feelings, the way of heart connected, if none of the person make a move, then, none of them would know. We can say "ah! I think he likes me." "ah! I think he will not reject me." but, the "i think" is what ourselves think, our own assumption and not that other person's real statement. So, we will never know the right answer, except they confessed."

    Then, Ayumu smiled; "But, there yer are. Acting so bold, kissing me right infront of my brothers. Ya thinks its romantic?" She giggled, forming a soft smile on Kita's lips. His fingers slightly curled, twinning his and Ayumu's fingers together.

    " I wish, Kageyama was bold as yer are...but I know, its a rude of me to compare. So, let's just stop comparing. Each of us are different anyway." She said. " To answer yer question, why I choose yaㅡI have no exact answer. But Tsumu really attacked me by saying; "if Kita-san found someone new and ya finally realised that ya just lost him, don't regret yer choice" I don't understand what he meant by that, until the day I saw ya talking with another girl."