mysteries & secrets | mileven

thirteen

CHAPTER THIRTEEN;
• BATHROOM PANIC •

september 6th
10:34am

it was getting unbearable. the constant voices and flashbacks in class was getting worse and worse by the day.

the voices...

god the voices suck.

especially in class which is where el was right now.

she has been fighting the urge to leave science right now but that will catch everyone's attention.

her hood of her hoodie was low enough to cover her eyes though so no one could notice her tears right now.

"who can answer question 26?" mr clarke asks, pointing to the board.

jesus, not now. she leans down on the table, hoping no one would pick on her.

"el?" mr clarke asks.

"don't know." she mumbles and picks on her fingernails.

"i'm sorry? el, can you speak up?" he asks as she sighs.

"the answer is 71%." mike cuts in to help her.

"that is correct." mr clarke smiles.

"mr clarke?" el asks, looking up.

"yes, el?" he asks.

"may i use the bathroom?" she asks quietly.

"yes." he answers as she nods, grabbing her bag and quickly leaving the classroom.

she walks to the bathroom quickly, sitting down on the floor against the wall as she brings her knees up to her chest.

"n-no not the rope. please no." she sobs, covering her ears to block out the rushing memories.

"shut up!"

"it hurts, let me go." she cries quietly, "let me go, let me go, let me go!"

"can you just shut up!?"

"not the whip... please." she cries weakly.

"you disobeyed me!"

the bell suddenly rings making her flinch and sob even harder.

"i need kai... stop... please... d-daddy, please..." she begs quietly.

"you're a disappointment!"

"i-it h-h-hurts." she sobs even harder, "it hurts, it hurts, it hurts..." she repeats over and over again. 

"how are you even my daughter!?"

suddenly the second bell rings making her jump and close her eyes.

"my wrists are turning blue... please just let me go." she begs.

"i just want to fucking kill you!"