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In which Felix is depressed because of his childhood trauma. He thought his life wasn't worth to save. But then the cold popular guy notices him and something changes. What will happen?
❗️INCLUDES❗️
abuse
self harm
panic attacks
demon...
He told me to go away but I didn't want to. He definitely needed someone right now. Maybe not me but he couldn't and wouldn't go through this alone.
I didn't even know Felix. I didn't know what he'd been through in his past. I know nothing about him. We were strangers. But still I wanted to help him. I stayed with him even if he wanted it or not.
"I said g-go away Hyunjin." He tried to say without stuttering, but miserably failed. I walked up to him. He tried to push me away but I was stronger.
I took him in my arms and squeezed him tightly against my chest. He coughed a little but I made sure that he was okay. It wasn't until now I understood that Felix probably had been through some real trauma in his life that I couldn't fix. When he'd calmed down a little, I decided to ask him.
"Felix, why did you try to kill yourself?" I asked with a calm voice, trying not to make him uncomfortable. He sighed before he started speaking. "Well first of all, I didn't want to kill myself, I just wanted to feel something else than... Pain." He started. I stroked his hair with my right hand, giving him a sign to continue.
"I usually won't go this long with trying to calm the voices down, but one thing made me upset and the voices started yelling really aggressive." Felix continued. He took a short pause before he spoke again.
"I think you may know Chris Bang?" He asked as he looked up and me. I was about to speak but then our eyes met and everything went in slow motion.
Like everything and everyone around us disappeared. It was just us for the moment. His brown innocent eyes connected to mine made my stomach fill up with rainbow butterflies who was tickling my insides. I couldn't speak for a moment. Not until he turned back his gaze to my left hand that he was playing with.
"Well y-yeah, Bang Chan?" I stuttered, I knew Chan's Australian name was Christopher but he was usually called Chris instead. "Oh yeah, Chan..." He said quietly. But then he spoke up again. "We used to be friends you know... But then he moved without telling me. We were best friends, soulmates even..."
My heart somehow ached by hearing the word soulmate coming out of his mouth. Like he used it wrongly. Like it wasn't meant to be used when he talked about someone else.
Even though we'd met in less than a week it felt like years. We were already comfortable with each other.
"... But then he just left. Like I meant nothing to him. I'm not saying that he is a bad person because he really isn't. It was just really fucking stupid of him to just leave me without telling. He was here one day and then just... gone." Felix continued to speak.
This made me think about Chan's behavior. He hasn't really been talking about his past like me and my other friends, like he tried to forget it.
Suddenly Felix's phone got an SMS.
+82 xxxxxxxxx Hi Felix, it's Chris
- I finished writing this at 12:50 am.
I am probably gonna stay up a little more to write oneshots because my friend is forcing me to write Seungin but I have no inspiration so it's hard. (English is hard) *Insert Hyunjins cute english accent*
Nvm I dyed and cut my hair yesterday. Now I look like a woman in her 30s. 💀
I look like a woman named Eva. But I have almost the same hair color as Hyunjin has right now :3
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Like this kinda :)
Oh god I miss him, hope he'll be fine soon. <3 (Update: 2022-07-06) | | V Bitch don't remind me
