safe in your arms - hyunlix

9

[Hyunjins pov]

I was taking a casual walk down the beach when I saw a pair of sneakers laying in the sand. I bent down and took one of the white sneakers in my hand. I remembered those shoes.

They belonged to Felix.

He wore them during school, I remembered that. When he was laying on the bathroom floor that day. unconscious in a pile of his own blood.

I ran up to the water and caught sight of a blonde hairy ball bobbing lifelessly under the calm waves. I tried to quickly ran up to it, but the water was slow to get through. When I finally arrived in front of it, I took it in my arms.

My guess was correct. It was Felix who was laying in my arms, again. His body was way under the normal body temperature and his whole figure was shaking. I couldn't see tears since his whole face was wet cause of the water, but I was pretty sure he'd cried because of the red eyes and puffy cheeks. He looked weakly at me before he let out two simple words, then closed his eyes.

"I'm sorry."

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[Felix's pov]

My eyes slowly opened and got met by a bright sunshine hitting them. I grimaced and covered my eyes with my hand.

Where am I?

I couldn't answer myself before I heard a pair of footsteps stomping against the wooden floor. I looked in the direction where the sound came from. There he stood. The one and only Hwang Hyunjin.

There you have him.
He thinks you're a burden.
He thinks you're annoying.
He hates you.
Go leave him alone, you don't deserve him.

The voices keeps yelling inside my head. My head started to ache by the overwhelming thoughts and I groaned in pain. I held my head in my hands.
"Hey, you okay?" Hyunjin asked me as he ran up to me.

I didn't answer him, because I couldn't; the voices were too strong for me to stop them.

He is faking everything.
He doesn't care for you.
He doesn't care about you.
No one does.
Everybody hates you Felix.
How can you not see that?
Oh poor boy.

"G-go away.." I said, trying not to break into tears, but failed.

Tears streamed down my face like a waterfall, they just couldn't stop falling. Hyunjin just stood there, didn't know what to do. But it was okay.

I wouldn't know either if I was in his position.

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ok hi lol. I fell asleep way to late tonight. I read fanfiction until I got bored and wanted to fall asleep but I couldn't. so I turned on some 8D music on YouTube to get what sleepy. suddenly skz ASMR came on and I decided to listen to it. but damn, it was hard to not burst into laugh... It was like 3 am and my whole family was asleep. 😭