She's So Particular (Complete)

First Kisses

"Are you okay?"

Nesto sits next to me on the edge of my bed, his hand resting on my shoulder. All I can do to reply is nod

"Your first time drunk hu?"

"Please don't tell my dad"

"Of course. So how is it?"

"Like being spun for hours on a fairground ride and then being asked to walk in a straight line and make real life decisions whilst being sick all over the lead singer of a world famous rock band just after he rejected you by not kissing you back after you built up all your courage to kiss him first"

I sigh dejectedly as I feel my cheeks burn once more at the memory of my pressing my lips to Shawn's and him, instead of kissing back, telling me no

"How come he seems to want every other girl in the world and not me?"

Nesto rubs my shoulder sympathetically and then shrugs

"That was my first ever time kissing a boy and he rejected me. Do you know how lame that is? That when I get interviewed in future and they ask about my first kiss I will have to say I got rejected" I bury my head in my hands

"Well does it even count as a kiss if he didn't kiss back?"

"Our lips touched"

"Maybe it was just an accidental touching of lips"

"I grabbed his head Nesto! I attached myself to his face!"

"You were drunk, I think that means none of this actually counts"

"Really? Is that how it works? You get drunk, make really bad life decisions but then say it doesn't count because you were drunk?"

"I think so" Nesto smiles kindly down at me and then smoothes a hand over my hair and I let my head drop to his shoulder "So what is this Camila? Do you like him or was this just a drunken mistake?"

He continues to smooth his hand over my hair as I give his question some thought

"I honestly don't know. He's so wrong for me but... I'm drawn to him for some reason"

"Maybe because he's a bad boy? You know your father would disapprove so it seems exciting?"

"Everything's exciting when I'm with him. I just wish I had kept my lips to myself before I sussed out what I was feeling and why" we both chuckle lightly and then I feel Nestos body shift as he moves away from me slightly and then uses a finger to tilt my chin

"You know Camila, I wouldn't have rejected you, I would have made sure your first kiss was something special, something you could remember and talk about with a smile on your face not a regret in your chest"

His breath is warm and minty on my face

"Say the word and we can re-do your first kiss, only this time we can do it properly"

"Nesto..."

"I will never let you down Camila"

Before I can say another word his lips are on mine and it feels so soft and so warm and so weird but It feels nice so I go with it only pulling away when I feel his tongue press again my bottom lip

"We should stop" I tell him, pressing my palm to his chest

"Okay" he kisses my cheek and then stands up from the bed, a slight smile on his lips as he turns and walks away and leaves me a drunken, confused mess knowing I will have to face Nesto and Shawn tomorrow and dreading the thought of both