She's So Particular (Complete)

Let Me Excel

"I'm sorry" I walk to the sofa where Shawn is sat with his air pods in. He doesn't answer and my heart begins to thump whilst I panic I have caused him to change his mind about us "Shawn..." I touch his arm and he jumps and I'm relieved to find he wasn't ignoring me, he just wasn't aware of my presence

"Sorry, I was just listening to the new album"

"Is it finished?" I ask as I take a seat next to him

"It's all done, there's a wrap party next week"

I hold my breath, hoping he will ask me to go with him but he says nothing

"I said I would be bad at this" I admit as I nervously pick at my nail "I didn't realise I would be so bad so quickly but..."

"Camila..."

"I should have spoken to you"

"Yeah you should but I shouldn't have been so jealous" My head snaps up at the word "I have a pretty big ego Camila, my girlfriend calling another guy instead of me it just..." he shakes his head and I move my hand to his knee

"I'm sorry, I should have known"

"I'm sorry that today is about our first fight instead of it being about you being brave enough to confront your dad"

"Brave or stupid?"

"You admitted the truth, he'll have to pay for what he did now"

"But what happens to me? I'm lost without him Shawn, I don't know what I'm supposed to do or say or who I'm supposed to talk to"

"You'll work it out, you'll work yourself out. I'm here for you, to help, whatever you need I'm here"

"Really?!" I shift to look him in the face "You aren't breaking up with me?" His eyebrows shoot north

"Breaking up with you?! We just got together"

"But I spoiled it" I lift my hand from his knee but his long fingers wrap around my wrist and pull me towards him

"I over reacted, I should have been praising your bravery instead of giving in to jealousy" his lips brush over mine lightly and then more firmly

"He said some things"

"Don't believe him, he's a liar" he kisses my lips softly

"About my mom" he strokes my face and then looks at me as though he's waiting for an explanation "that she didn't want me"

"Camila... honey..."

"I want to find her and Diego, I need answers Shawn"

"Then we'll go to Cuba, let me get the next couple of weeks done at work and then you and me... we'll go"

I drop my head and run a palm over my forehead "I feel as though my whole life as I knew it has just disappeared"

"So now you build a new life, the one you want, the one you deserve" he takes my face in his hands and presses his lips to mine and it feel so soft and so secure I feel as though I'm dissolving in his hands

"Nesto and I..."

"It was nothing, I know, he told me when he called to let me know where you were going"

So that's how he knew! Nesto...

"He might have feelings for you Camila but he's a good friend, he's loyal and I'm glad you had him"

"Had?" The word sounds heavy, as though it's loaded with meaning I don't get straight away

"And now you have me. Any problems, any situations like this better or worse it's me you call, okay?"

"Okay" I agree as his lips once again move over mine, massaging kiss after kiss as his fingers move to my waist and then my ass and as he groans loudly I realise this just might be the moment for us to learn about pleasure together.

I reach for his hand and pull gently, he looks at me in confusion as my heart begins to race

"Do you um... do you want to go to the bedroom? I want to do something for you, as a thank you"

He shakes his head "You don't have to thank me for anything"

"I want to try though... please"

He stands up and wraps his arms around my waist "Are you sure? This is because you want to right not because you feel like you owe me something because you don't"

"I want to" I confirm

"Okay" he kisses my mouth gently and then laces our fingers together before leading me towards his bedroom, my heart hammering and my stomach bubbling with excitement and anticipation.

I'm about to go down on my boyfriend for the first time in my life and all I can think is 'please God don't let this be one more thing that I'm bad at, let me excel in something for once'

*please comment and vote as this story moves onto focus more on their relationship and not so nigh on daddy drama