She's So Particular (Complete)

Should We Talk?

"There you go"

Nesto hands me a glass of red wine and I look up at him in surprise

"I won't tell him if you won't" he winks and I know he's talking about more than just the glass of wine

"Do you know how many calories are in this stuff?" I take the glass anyways and settle back against the sofa, sighing heavily as Nesto takes a seat next to me

"You don't need to lose weight Mila"

"The record label think I do"

"Well they are idiots" he takes a sip of his wine and encourages me to do the same "I can't believe your dad went out of town and trusted me to take care of you"

"Yeah well it was business though and you know with my dad business always comes first" I take a sip of the thick liquid and then hiss as it burns a track down my throat, because of my reduced 'vegan' diet I feel the heat radiate immediately spreading a warmth from my stomach down to my toes

"So should we talk?"

I tug at me grey sleep shorts and avoid Nestos eyes, knowing after what Shawn said this conversation was coming

"I'm not an idiot Camila. I know that whatever's going on between us is a thing of convenience"

My head snaps up at his words, he's gazing at me intently as he sips his wine then sets it aside

"You're 19 with no experience of a guy and I was here and offering"

"You make it sound so clinical"

"I just don't want you worrying about the rights on wrongs of this"

He reaches out and stokes the back of my hand and the contact is so sudden it causes me to automatically lift my glass to my lips to end it

"You want the experience and I want to be there for you. Provide a safe environment for you so you don't end up at the mercy of some loser like Mendes"

"Don't call him that"

"After the way he went on yesterday Camila it's exactly what he is"

I sigh and take another sip, my confrontations with both Shawn and his father still fresh in my mind

"You need to stay away from him, the sooner you get this album recorded and you get out of that studio the better"

He reaches for my hair and pushes it from my face and I close my eyes as he takes the glass from my hands and sets it down next to his

"Can I kiss you?"

I nod and his lips eagerly meet mine, his lips are warm and taste of wine and I keep my eyes tightly shut as his hands move to my face and I allow images of Shawn to fill my mind.

The way his tank tops leave his shoulder and biceps naked to my eyes

Nestos hand moves from my cheek to my chin and the other one lands gently on my thigh

The way his black jeans pull tight over his ass and make his legs look miles long

Nestos fingers dig roughly into my waist as I'm aware of him putting pressure on me to lie back but I hear Shawns voice in my head

'Where does it end? Will you let him put his hands on your chest? In your panties?'

If I lie back now will he touch me where no one has touched me before?

Do I want him to?

Will I like it?

I want to be like every other 19 year old girl. I want a boyfriend, I want to hold hands and kiss and go on dates. I want to know what it's like to have a man touch me, to make love to me.

Do I want that man to be Nesto?

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1 Week Later

"Hey Camila"

The sound of Shawns voice causes me to jump and then clutch the white paper bag I was attempting to put into my purse close to my chest

"Long time no see" he says with a grin but I don't return it as my heart pounds against my contraband "Not speaking?"

"Nothing to say" I try to push past him but he takes my arm in his hand and just his skin on mine has my body burning

"I'm sorry for what I said about your boy"

"He's not my boy and you know that" I try again to push past but apparently he has something to say and I'm not leaving until he's said it

"You haven't spoken to me since"

"I don't have anything to say, you and I, we aren't friends, we aren't coworkers we are just 2 people that come together and irritate the shit out of each other" his face does something I don't understand, like maybe he's hurt by what I said but again I push to get past him but this time he grabs me more forcefully and it causes the bag I carry to drop from my arms the the ground and the contents to spew out over the floor

"What the fuck..." he reaches down and picks up the box I had hoped to keep from everyone's sight

"Shawn..."

"Condoms?!"

My face burns as I stare hard at the floor

"Camila?"

I'm so humiliated and desperate to push past him I say nothing whilst moving forward but Shawn grabs my shoulders hard and I cry out

"Camila???"

"It's none of your business" I say whilst tears drip down my cheeks "None of this is your business"

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