You, Till The End

Chapter 28

Simply because they're not you

Nasa sala ako, pinapanood itong maghugas ng mga pinag kainan namin, nililinis din nito ang kusina, inaayos ang mga kalat sa ibabaw ng counter. Humarap ito sa akin habang nagpupunas ng kamay sa tuwalya. Nakataas ang isang kilay ko at seryosong nakatingin ito. He looked like he is still hungry while staring back at me. I saw him smirk that makes me rolled my eyes. Huminga ako ng malalim. We really need to talk seriously. Ayokong magpaligoy ligoy o patagilin pa. Its just a waste of time if we keep playing hide and seek or keep avoiding him eh lagi naman itong sumusulpot sa bahay ko.

" What is it? "

He sit in front of me like he is not even scared.

" You can't stay here whenever you like, may bahay ka naman, dun ka umuwi. "

Umiling ang loko.

" Unless you will come home and live with me. "

" Bakit ako dun uuwi eh dito ang bahay ko. May bahay ka, dun ka umuwi. Its not like I'm married to you para uuwi ako sayo. Ano nalang sasabihin ng nanay mo? "

" You will marry me. I will make sure of that. You will come home and live with me everyday.And my mother has nothing to do with my decision, I can do what I want, choose what I want and marry who I want. "

Hindi agad ako nakapagsalita. Yung sina-ulo kanina sa utak ko sa kung ano yung sasabihin biglang nawala lahat. Umirap ako. I even sighed heavily. Tumayo si Kaius at lumapit sa akin. He pulled my hand para tumayo. He sit down in wider couch and made me sit on his lap. Matalim ang tingin na binigay ko sa ginawa nya pero hindi ako kumontra. Mukhang balewala din naman kay Kaius lahat ng pag kontra ko sa mga gusto nya.

" What do you want? Really? Like seriously? Why are you doing all of these? Wala ng tayo. Walang tayo. Kaya hindi ko maintindihan itong mga pinaggagawa mo. "

Nahigit ko ang paghinga ko ng hinaplos nito ang tiyan ko, like he's really caressing my tummy carelessly. Ang isang braso ni Kaius ay nasa bewang ko, making small circle like he usually do every time he made me sit on his lap before.

" I want us back together. Officially. I want nothing except that, for now. I will stay here until you agree to be with me again. I will make you want me again. I will do everything, everything, bumalik ka lang sa akin. If I have to seduce you, so be it. "

I can't believe him. Wala talaga itong bumalik sa sarili nitong bahay? Paano nalang yung witch nitong nanay? His mother don't like me for him. She likes someone else daughter for her son because I am not good enough for him.

" I don't think your mother will agree to you. "

He give that sharp stare. " Tell me, may kinalaman ba ang nanay ko kung bakit bigla kang nakipag hiwalay sa akin dati? Kung bakit bigla kang umalis ng hindi nagpaalam? "
Humigpit ang pagkakahawak sa akin ng sinubukan ko na tumayo. My god, pwede naman kami mag usap ng may distansya sa isa't isa.
" Stay where you are and answer my question. I will not allow you to keep your distance with me. Hindi ko rin hahayaan na makalayo ka sa akin. Not again. Pinagbigyan kita ng ilang taon, but not this time. Now, what about my mother? Did she talk you before you left? I remembered talking to her about scholarship for you para wala na sanang maging problema pa, para nasa malapit lang din kita, but still you left me and I understand that. You did that for your dreams, for your self. Kahit ayaw ko kung yun ang gusto mo, wala akong magagawa, I will give in and will support you, always. Alam ko na hindi madali, but I will try to understand you but you never tried to talk to me about your plans and dreams because I was not part it. I understand that too. There is this thing we called communication babe but you did not chose that. You just leave me behind while you move on. And I'm not okay with that. It's fucking not okay. "

Hindi ko alam na sunod sunod yung luha ko sa pagtulo ng marinig ang sinabi nito. Ang sakit na marinig ko mismo lahat ng nararamdaman nito at hindi okay yun.

" And now you are fucking crying? I don't want your tears now babe. I want answers and some explanation. Start with my mother. "

Pinunasan ko ang buong mukha ko gamit ang suot kong tshirt. I can't believe I cried hard like this in front of him.

" Your mother came to me before I decided to leave for Switzerland. She was mad, telling me to stay away from you cause I am not worthy for her son. Na totoo naman. I have nothing. At naintindihan ko yun. I don't have money, connections, or anything para bumagay sa anak nya. That's why I chose to broke up with you and leave. For myself. Para pagdating ng araw kahit papaano maging karapat-dapat ako sa lalaking pipiliin ko sa susunod, dahil kahit sasabihin mo na wala kang pakialam sa sasabihin ng pamilya mo at sa ibang tao, ako meron. Masakit sa parte ko na makarinig ng hindi maganda just because the man that I want is someone like you. "
I don't want to tell him everything what his mother exact words because it will upset him more. His mother is just protecting her child, thats only her reason why she did insulted me. Those words from his mother keeps me unhappy all those years, I am aloof to anyone, and I don't trust people around me in an unknown place.

" I will talk to her about this but still, sana kinausap mo pa rin ako noon. Regardless of what my mother's decision for me before, I will respect that and do something about that but still I will keep my relationship with you even you are abroad. At kung ano man ang desisyon na pipiliin ko ngayon, my mother has no choice but to respect my decision because it is my decision. It is my choice. And I know I will not be happy if it's someone else she likes. "

" Pero---"

" She is still and my mother babe. I respect her so much that I'm going to beg her this time to let me choose you. I've been a good yet miserable son all this years. Siguro naman pagbibigyan nya ako this time? "

Wala akong masabi. At kahit na kontrahin ko ang mga gusto nya, ito para rin ang masusunod.

We keep staring each other just like that. He wipe my face because my cheeks are wet from my tears.

" Now, are we good? May tanong pa ba? May kumakaway pa ba dyan sa isip mo? "

" I'm really wondering why you are not in someone else after all these years. I'm sure hindi ka nawawalan ng babae na nagkakandarapa sayo. "

He is grinning. " Because they are not you. Simple as that. Kaya lang matigas ang ulo mo. But please, lets get back together, for real. "

Marami akong agam agam, mga tanong, pagdududa pero ayoko munang harapin yun sa ngayon. I will deal with those later.

" Sinubukan...mo ba maghanap ng iba? Kasi imposible na single ka for almost a decade? "

He burried his face to my neck and start kissing there. " It's a lie if I will say na hindi ko sinubukan maghanap ng iba. I dated girls after girls but I can't find that connection, or chemistry that we had. I sleep with some of them but again, I failed. I can't find that peace whenever I'm with you. I tried to move on like nothing happen because I was thinking its just a puppy love but I failed again. Simply because they are not you. There is only you til now. At gagawin ko ang lahat just to have you again. "

I stare at him for a long time while listening to him and its confirmed that I am still in love with him, that there's no another man except him, that I never move on from after all these years, that everything is all worth it. I kissed his lips and he stopped talking. And started to kissed me back. We both moaned while kissing torridly. It feels like home. This is home.

We are both panting when he stop the kiss. He leaned his forehead to mine and kiss my nose, my eyes, my cheeks, and my jawline.

" Are we back for good? "
He asked.

Tumango ako ng nakatingin ng diretso sa mga mata nito, " yes. "

He cussed again and again and kiss my neck and my face. He even suck and bite my skin. Natawa ako. Pinanggigilan yata ako nito. " Thanks god! "

I response to his kisses that makes me feel like I have a fever because I feel too hot. His hands are touching me everywhere. I moaned when his hand went under my shirt and caress my skin going up to my breast, and his thumb playing with my already hard peaks. He stand up and walk to my room while he is carrying me and didn't stop kissing.

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