Forget (OffGun)

24.

"Uncle, I think Gun should just go home with you. He can't stay with Off" New said.

They are in Gun's father's office. All of them, Krist, Jane and Singto. Off was the one who's looking for Gun today. Gun was now convinced that Off and him are married but for unknown reason, he can't look at the older's eyes. It aches him. They also convince New to let Off stay with Gun.

Mr. Phunsawat sighed. He looked at his son's friend. Feeling happy that his son has a friends who really cares for him. He smiled sadly.

"I told to myself that I won't make a decision without asking Gun's opinion now" he answered.

"But Off cheated, Uncle. That's why Gun got into an accident" Krist said.

"I agree, Uncle. Now that Off just made us realize that he will never love Gun" Singto commented seriously.

"And we shouldn't let P'Gun stay with him now. He might be hurt again" Jane said. All of them are worried about Gun.

"I know all of you are worried about my son. Off explained to me everything that happened. It was so sad that he only realized what was he really feel about Gun this late" all of their forehead wrinkled in confusion about what Mr. Phunsawat's saying.

"What do you mean, sir?" Singto asked.

"I've been observing them, you know. Off has been so confuse about his feelings for too long. He keeps on ignoring his feelings because of his anger" he explained.

"Uncle, this ain't about how they feel towards each other. Off still cheated." New debated.

"You are also a man, New. I know deep down you understand him" Mr. Phunsawat tried to smile but New just shook his head.

"No. I will never understand a person who's cheating. I will never understand a person who chose to fulfill their need in other person, not even thinking about the person who cares about them, the person who's patiently waiting for them at home, worried they might overworked themselves but turns out they are just fucking another person. I will never understand a person who's looking for a temporary happiness with another person without even thinking that, that temporary happiness could give a permanent pain with the person who love them."

"P'New" Jane called worriedly. All of them are shocked seeing New this emotional. Seeing New's eyes with a hint of anger in his eyes.

"I agree with him. Cheating is a selfish action. That only means he don't really care about Gun" Krist also said.

"I'm sorry, Uncle. But if Gun will remember what Off did, it will cause him a lot of pain. He will ask his worth and everything. He can also loose his confident. I know you don't want that to happen as well" New explained as he looked at Mr. Phunsawat.

"Then, let Gun decide whether he wants to go home with Off or not" Mr. Phunsawat said after a minutes of thinking what will he do. He looked at New. "New, remember. People can change, and people deserves a second chance."

All of them agreed but New nodded hesitantly. He still don't want Gun to go back with Off. Not everyone deserves a second chance. Especially to those people who only thinks about theirselves and their happiness.

••••••••••••••••••

"P'New, are you okay?" Gun asked. They are alone. All of their friend has work. And New was the only person who's free today.

Gun noticed how New is zoning out. He keeps on staring at nothing and thinking deeply.

New looked at Gun and he smiled.

"I'm okay. How about you? Does your head still hurt?" New asked, voice is soft. Gun gave his cheeky smile and shook his head as a 'no'.

"I still can't believe you have a lot of muscles now, P'New." Gun said as he pouted.

"Said the one who has a veiny hands" New joked but Gun didn't laugh at all. His smile fell. "Did I say something wrong?" He worriedly asked. Gun smiled sadly as he shook his head again.

"I was just thinking about my life for that 5 years I lost. I have a lot of question, P'New. Like how come I am married now? When? When did I meet my husband? What happened to our wedding? Why all of you now are actor and actress and I'm not? Did I just give up my dreams for whatever my husband name is? Why-"

"Shhh, it's okay, Gun" New holds his right hand and tried to calm him down again. "The doctor said you shouldn't force yourself to remember"

"But I feel lost now, P'New. Everything is confusing me. I feel like I was left out. I am 27 but I don't remember celebrating my 23rd birthday" Gun looked at New. His eyes is full of question.

He still have a lot of question running in his mind but he didn't said it out loud. Like why does he feel sad, hurt and angry whenever he is looking at his husband?

"Tell me, P'New. How long me and..." Gun stopped thinking what was his husband's name.

"Off" New answered him.

"Yea, Off. How long I am married with him?" Gun asked. New sigh. He doesn't want to talk something about Off.

"More than 2 years." New answered, uninterested.

Gun nodded his head and got back from thinking something alone. New looked at him and decided to ask something.

"Are you going home with him?" New asked. Silently hoping Gun would answer no. Gun looked at him before looking down and started playing the bandage in his left arm.

"I don't know, P'New. But thinking about going home to our so-called home might help me remember something." Gun answered and looked at New again. "And I should live with my husband, aren't I?" Gun asked.

New stared at him. Oh, how he wish he can tell what Off did to him. He was just scared Gun might get a severe headache and will collapse again. Gun's health is way more important than his anger towards Off.

"It's up to you, Gun. I am just worried you might feel uncomfortable with him since you don't remember him" New answered as he fake a smile. Gun nodded.

"Yeah. Me too. But I think I need to go home with him. I am more eager to restore my memories" Gun answerd though he's also hesitant. He doesn't really know if he can live with Off feeling like that everytime he's looking at him.

He feel so uncomfortable towards him and his feelings towards the older is confusing him so much.

"But if ever you can't really stay with him, you can always come to me" New said aiming a cheeky smile and a nod from the younger.

"Of course, I will"