Forget (OffGun)

49.

Gun's POV:

4 years ago...

I've been away from everyone for a year now. I uninstalled all my social media apps and chances my number. The people who can only communicate with me were my family and friends. Nothing else.

My friends visited me whenever they had a chance. It was quite peaceful but it's hard.

I was alone all the time. I was alone dealing with my feelings. I was alone healing myself. I don't want to bother my friends for the consequences that I am facing for the decision I made before. That's why I need to face this alone and act all okay in front of my friends.

It was a fine day today. A fine day to have a walk, go shopping and eat in a fancy restaurant alone.

It is the first time I'm doing all this alone. It's quite lonely and suffocating to be honest. But I don't want to rely on anyone this time. It was all my fault that I am in this situation right now.

I am walking alone when I saw a woman, a pregnant woman walking alone. I can't help but to stare at her and her big belly.

I suddenly thought of P'Off and my heart started aching again. I've been healing it for a year already but the pain is still here.

P'Off might wanted to have his own family. Have a woman he loves bear their child. He might wanted to have his own child.

I can't give him that.

I smiled bitterly as I focus on her. I just let my heart aching and watched the woman carefully.

She was alone walking while holding her belly. She looks like she was struggling.

It was only natural for me to help. But it was more serious than I thought it would be because she's in a labor and she'll give birth any time.

She's so thin and pale but she still look pretty. She looks young. Maybe 4 years younger than me. I don't really know much about her.

I wasn't planning of being involved of any kind of accident. I just wanted to help her get to the hospital then leave her alone.

I wasn't in a state where I have the time to care about others when I am struggling on my own.

I just wanted to go home and drink some beer to forget the pain and just go straight to bed.

But I learned that the woman doesn't have anyone anymore. I don't know who to call. The father was nowhere.

She doesn't have anything in her. Money, Id's or anything that have information about her. There's nothing.

So I can't just leave her alone. I was also scared she can't do it by how thin she is. She looks so sick.

The doctor said she needed someone since her condition isn't good. They said it was 2 weeks earlier for the baby to come out.

I don't know what to do. It's not like I have experienced in this.

I have no choice but to stay by her side. I called my friends to tell them what happened so that they won't be worrying about me.