Forget (OffGun)

58.

Off's POV:

It's the day of the proposal. Me, Singto, Arm, Tay and New went to the island again to prepare everything while Jane, Gun and Yanna were with Krist.

We were taking a short break but Singto didn't stop working.

He even woke up before the sun rises. We're preparing the venue early in the morning. He's working nonstop.

I can't help but to watch him walk back in forth, calling one of the staff who's helping us, shirt is wet with his sweat, but still manage to smile. He Talkwith the staff as they laugh.

I can clearly see how excited he is for tonight.

"Should I also plan on proposing?"

I immediately looked at Tay who spoke while watching Singto beside me. I looked at New who's sitting on the sand. I saw him froze.

"Why would you?" He asked after.

"Don't you want to?" Tay asked and chuckled. New glared at him. But they somehow looked sweet to me. They looked like they were flirting in front of me.

"Shut up. I'm still busy with today and Jane's wedding next month." New replied.

"How about be busy with our wedding?" Tay asked again.

"Are you getting jealous with your friend proposing?" New asked.

I looked back at Singto again.

Then I asked myself the same question New asked.

Am I jealous of Singto for proposing?

Am I jealous of him proposing to the person he love? The person he's sure be by his side forever? The person he wanted to share his future with?

The person he'll see first thing in the morning? Even though it's a normal thing to them since they were living together. But I think it feels different knowing both of you were married.

I looked down and scoffed at myself.

I think I am.

I am jealous even though I got married and I woke up with Gun beside me for almost three years.

I don't even remember if I ever proposed to him before. If I did, I know for sure I didn't put any effort into it.

All I remember was the family dinner of Phunsawat and Adulkittiporn just to announce our engagement.

I didn't even got to agree or refuse because it's already been decided. And I didn't want to look at Gun who's also involved with it.

Because it felt unfair. Like my opinion and say about it was not important at all. The person's (who's going to marry someone he only knows by name) opinion isn't valid.

I was angry but couldn't fight the elders. I ended up getting mad at Gun. I let all of my anger and frustration to Gun because I know he couldn't fight back and that's what I regret the most.