Forget (OffGun)

42.

Gun's POV:

I am looking at P'New right now who's sitting right next to me.

He decided to come even though I told him not to. I know they are worried. I may fool a lot of people with my excuses and my acting but they know me too well.

I looked outside. The clear sky and the clouds looking like it was next to me.

Moving forward is never easy. It hurts a lot that a part of me wanted to go back and look for him. Part of me wanted to take back what I said that night.

But the marriage wasn't made because of love in the first place. We didn't get married because we love each other.

It was wrong from the start.

The marriage. It feels like a cage that kept us from flying. It kept us from doing the things we wanted to do.

It hurts so much. But I feel guilty at some point.

Ploy and P'Off.

I clenched my fists.

She said they've been together for almost 2 years. It's quite a long time if you're going to ask me.

There's no way P'Off didn't love her in that time. I saw in Ploy's eyes how much she cares for P'Off. I saw how much she love him. She even agreed to make their relationship hidden without asking P'Off the reason. She trusted him a lot.

I saw myself in her.

P'Off definitely had feelings for her even though he's going to deny that now. Because he's not the type of person who can realize his feelings so easily.

And the marriage stopped him from being in a relationship like a normal person. It kept their relationship limited.

Because of me.

Because he's married with me.

And I was blinded by love that I even considered giving up my biggest dream. I agreed on being locked up and do nothing but to prove how much I love him.

I was a fool to think I can change his mind and heart. I was a fool to think I can make him fall for me who ruined him.

I, who puts him in this cage called 'marriage'.

I thought my sincerity is enough. But I was wrong.

My Dad said that the process of our divorce is going smoothly. And it would definitely be done by next month or so.

The cage is opening. I'm letting him go. I'm setting him free.

So please fly high, P'Off. Be free and do what makes you happy.

I feel my heart tightening. It's overwhelming. It makes me wants to cry again.

"Are you going to be okay?" P'New asked as he softly tapped my thigh. I took a deep breath before looking at him and smiled.

"I will. You don't need to worry." I said and stared at him.

"Want me to stay with you longer?" He asked. I shook my head and holds his hand that was on my thigh.