The Work of Isolation| ✅️

Alone

"You will end up alone"
"Get out of your little world"
Her words echoed in my mind
Yet I knew that already

Days and days of hearing the same thing
You learn to accept it at one time
And I accepted alone
It wasn't hard
Don't feel sorry for me now
I don't need no pity
I do that myself

How could I expect anyone to keep up?
My emotions are tangled
My words are harsh
I'm the root of problems
So do you really believe I don't know?
Oh I know

It's okay though
Alone is nice
It's for everyone's good
I didn't belong anyway in the midst of your happiness
I belong where sorrow leads me
The thoughts in my head keep me awake
Alone my only company

Soon I realized it was just me
My endless screams, I swallowed whole
Yet I screamed from within

I wanted to feel the warmth I had read about
I wanted to run into someone's arms
Be someone's home
I wanted to be loved and wanted
Be someone's only one

No
I knew better than this
There was no such thing as love
It all just hurts at the end

Alone, my friend, explain to me
Explain to me everything and I'll listen
Alone needs company too
It didn't ask me but I know
Because I wouldn't ask either
But I want
I don't want to be alone
But it's not my choice
Alone chose me, so I have to stay

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It's really been so long since my last update huh? I just couldn't write but I have a few things in mind so hope I'll update this again in a few days. For now let me know what you think about this poem.

This book is actually about to end maybe and I'll do another part. I'm growing up and shutting chapters but my emotions are pretty consistent.

How are you all?

Take care,

Sera