The Work of Isolation| ✅️

Addicting

It took forever for you to come
But when you came, you came with promises 
You gave me no time to think
You enlightened me with so many emotions
And I wanted to stay with you forever
In that moment, I felt happy
Genuinely happy, after no one knows how long

I was in denial that you were not real
No way were you right in front me!
But you were
You were smiling, laughing and talking
And I watched in a trance
Unable to keep my emotions in check
I wasn't sure what was happening and I felt nothing
Because I didn't know what to feel
I was in denial the whole time but
I did make a wish
I wished for you to never leave
For me, to be able to stop everything

Up until now, I lied to myself
That dreams do come true
But then you swept in, with your arms wide open
Erasing my doubts and proving to me
That dreams do come true

Then it all hit me
All at once
No time to breath
No time to process
I should be overjoyed by the spectacle in front of me
But instead tears dripped one by one
The art in front me meant nothing
As slowly my tears were not tears no more
I didn't even realize it
But My heart shattered
It craved for your presence that was no where in sight

It was wrong of me to cling on to you
Your job was never to stay
And I did know it
I came prepared
No I thought I did
I really thought I would smile
I thought I would feel content
But all I felt was one of the worst heartbreaks

Tears just kept coming and I couldn't stop them because I was healing
This time it was taking longer

I finally found the courage to stand
And leave
But I couldn't leave, without looking back one last time
And making a little wish
'I need to come back '

Yes, you left me in pain
But you didn't leave me empty handed
You left me with hope
Something which is so delicate and easy to misplace in all the darkness
But yours is a little different
It's a lot stronger than I thought
So, I'll make sure to make it grow
For as long as I can
Because everything does die

Some part of me wished I had never met you
Some part of me wished to have never fell for you
But you are a magnet
No, maybe even stronger than that
Once anyone knows you
There is no return

But I'm so grateful
Thank you for grabbing on to me
Thank you for adding all the colors
Thank you for giving me hope
Thank you just Thank you

I can't ever get rid of this heartbreak
Because now I know, there is a hole
A hole in my heart that needs to be filled with your presence
This sounds unrealistic and I admit it is
But it's not my choice
I can't control what I feel for you

I'll cherish the memories I made
And I'll be waiting for a day to make more
Because you make me happy
A feeling so lost in this world
That I can't help but crave you
So, is it really wrong to want you?

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So, what did you all think? How would you interpret this poem. I know it's pretty long and it's because there was so much to tell in this poem.

This poem is actually about the BTS concert I went to. There were fireworks at the end and all I did was cry the whole way back home. I didn't eat properly that day. First because I was excited then later I didn't because I was sad. The concert felt so short, but I'll never forget it. It was the best night of my life. I really hope they come back again because I want to see them up closer. I still remember I cried tears of joy at the beginning. The feeling was so wonderful and then throughout the concert they kept coming and going and I didn't even know how to feel but when they left everything just hit me and I realized they left 😭😭😭

As always, thank you for the immense support and love.

Take care,

Anera