The Work of Isolation| ✅️

Let me be

I squeal, jump and squeal some more
Then I hold myself off, telling myself to calm
But I can't as my heart races with excitement
And my mind is a fuzzy mess

Adrenaline
Yes, that's what it was
A feeling so foreign yet addicting

But then you came
Absorbing each ounce of joy
Leaving me empty

I don't understand
I won't ever understand
Why you can't understand
Why I can't explain

Why do I have to smile alone?
Why do I have to cry alone?
I want to stop these questions with no answers
But I can't
I know it's wishful thinking to believe that maybe
Maybe one day you will share the same joy as me

But right now I stare at a hopeless case
I'm tired of being happy
I'm tired of smiling
Because you made me realize
That I don't deserve to be happy on little things
The only happiness I was allowed was of your own benefit

I refuse to succumb
I refuse to become nothing
But Honestly, I'm tired of fighting
I'm tired of tears
I'm tired of explaining

Because for once, I want to be understood
For once I don't want to be like you
For once I want to be myself
Be proud of what I like and who I am

I'm not little anymore
So you can't mold me to your will
So, I beg of you to stop trying
And let me be happy

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Well, this poem is a mess. I'm just going to let you all interpret this in your own way.

So, how are you all? Tell me what's new?

Thank you for reading and supporting me. I just feel like saying this in every chapter because I really am thankful and I have no idea how to repay you.

Take care,

Anera