A little Suffocated

28 6 10
                                        

Everything is okay....right?
No, it's not and it never was
Unfortunately, I realized too late
As I watched it happen right before my eyes

You love me
You care for me
But I think the lines have blurred now
It's not the same anymore

That love has turned toxic
And you might not realize it
But I have
I want to push you away
I want to run away
Ease my never ending pain

The demons I suppress show up when you are around
You are the trigger
The switch to the other side
And I can't deal with your sweet words
Those honey coated words that sound so right

How can your torture be better than a stranger?
It can't be
This can't be right 
Because my heart has way too many stitches
And half belong to you

If this is your way to help
Then please stop
I hate the way your higher your voice
It's torture to not just my ears but my heart

I'm tired
I'm so so tired
And I don't need you lurking
It might be your job
But I need you to stay calm

I'll be fine
I just need you to let me breath
Because these days I'm gasping for air
I can't remember the last time I was okay
So please just give me space
A place to be free

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I used to explain why I wrote what I wrote but these days I just want my poem to do the talking and for people to interpret it their  own way. I remember I wrote this weeks ago even before the poem I published but I never completed it.

Do tell me how you felt and if it was any good.

Thank you for reading and supporting me!

Take care,

Anera

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