Age comes with a lot of surprises and mainly nothing good.
"The old me is still there but she is too hurt"
A look into my teens.
Credits to @MissFischee98 for this wonderful gift (cover)
You changed they said She changed they discussed Change back they said But...but...you told me to change
I laughed loud and you frowned I dressed up and you judged I was a kid but you showed no mercy A slow virus spread inside of me
Your words cut me like knives My heart cracked with each word A new feeling erupted What did people call it ? Hurt It pained and there was no switch
And then I ended up with a doctor My mom worried by my thoughts Their words shouldn't bother you the doctor said But wasn't his job to do say these words? I didn't believe him Are you smart? he asked. Yes I lied to satisfy my mom I could do better I should do better Some things you can't control he said But I can escape I thought Because my voice had failed me I left with no change
I had changed and I didn't mind The people had hurt me when I was myself And now the old me was somewhere Lost in the sea of darkness
I cry because I can't be happy I cry because sometimes I need it Why do I need it now ? I never needed it before but I need it now I need sleep to keep me away I need distractions My thoughts are my enemy and I their sole victim
I'm okay I'm going to be okay when I'm away You are not good for me anymore I'm sorry but I need to stay away Please let me go Please forget me I'm sorry but my time is up
No more heartbreak No more pain I'm mentally exhausted I need a break
I hope to see you when the sun shines again I hope I'll be able to see you again I know you cared but now I'm shattered I'm sorry but this is the end for now A story to be left to be continued
****** Drapetomania: an overwhelming urge to runaway
We all change and you have to remember that you should only changed when you want to . Don't let people tell you what do because people are never satisfied . I'll tell you something the people you love are the ones who can hurt you the most because their opinion matter . I know it can be hard but sometimes people don't realize what they are saying .
Stay strong because I know you are stronger than all your problems.
Lastly, I just wanted to say Thank you @MissFischer98 once again for this beautiful cover. I will cherish it forever.👇👇
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