The Work of Isolation| ✅️

Eyes that Don't See

Pitch black
This pitch black darkness
I walk through
My steps weigh a ton
My heartbeat is abnormal
My eyes are covered

There is a hand?
No, it's harder
No, softer
It doesn't matter
All I see is pitch black

I move my hands slowly ....carefully
I could touch anything
I could touch anyone
My feet freeze at the sound of laughter
Faint
It was so faint but I heard it

No, I shake my head
It's no one
I was convincing but not enough
There it goes
That laugher

Joy
That's how people see laughter
But what if I tell you, it was treacherous
The sound of pure evil

They were mine
They all belonged to me
It was still pitch black
But I knew
I could feel
The laughter from each part of mine

It's my fault they are there
Because maybe if I was stronger
Those voices would have never lingered
But who was going to tell them that their stay was long overdue?

It's not funny how cold it is
Dark and cold
I guess the two were always friends
Could they cheer each other up too?
Could they teach me how to be happy?

Funny how I have to relay on them
I hate it
But I have no choice
These voices are growing and I swear I can feel them
It's not logical
But that's the thing, I have never been logical

My secret you may ask
My terrors have their own personalities
I'm just the pawn
They rule this side

My eyes are still covered
I would ask you to help
But I'm too afraid
I'm too afraid to see what I have created
Because these terrors have worsen
Because they have been growing
And I fed them willingly

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Do things get better? Yes
Do things get worse? Yes

I guess it's always up and down from now on or I'm just not positive enough. Honestly, I never thought I would be how I'm right now. A girl who always smiled. A girl who had a bubbly personality. Yeah, that was me and it still is but I'm not sure what happened.

Maybe it was my overthinking that took me to such a bad place in life. Not sure. It's a New Year and I guess I have the continue to push forward because the best I can do is enjoy the little things right now before it's too late, so I hope you all can do the same.

Leave me your thoughts and thank you for reading.

Take care,

Anera