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Isolophilia

I laughed and smiled
We talked and laughed
No one cared about anyone
The words didn't matter
It was nice to not care

But slowly
Ever so slowly
It changed

I felt
I cared
I noticed
And I walked

Further
Further
I moved away from them
The laughs
The joy
It vanished slowly
And I watch it slip away further

My heart shattered
Each piece stitching itself
But it rips again
And this time I don't mind

I loved the outdoors
I loved staying with people
But slowly I walked
Further away

My room was my safe place
The only place I felt safe
Because their words hurt
They hurt me
I said that I don't care
But I did
I couldn't turn it off

I couldn't stay out of the light
And now I didn't like the light
Only darkness felt nice

Darkness felt safe
It warped around me
And I enjoyed it's presence

I loved being alone
Because alone meant happiness
Those times were now memories
I was happy alone
No one could hurt me
I was safe
Away from them
Away from their words

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Isolophilia: strong affection for solitude, being alone

Sometimes you don't even realize what you have done until you have done it. I think about myself and realize I'm such a different person now. I'm not who I was five years ago and I think that's part of life and it's okay to change but just make sure not to hurt yourself along the way.

You are still you and as long as you stay true to yourself, that's what matters.

I never set a time to update but I didn't update because I'm been feeling a little out of place. I'm feeling tired no matter how much I sleep and kind of sick, so that's why I'm been absent.

Thank you for reading and I hope you liked it.

See you all soon.Bye!!!

Take care,
Serastella