Assassin's Creed Valhalla: The Forgotten Love

12 [A Love That Can Never Be]

It has been now six hours and the builder was almost done with the tower and Freyja was beginning to worry and I couldn't blame here; but I haven't been out of my palace since the fight between Fenrir and Odin for I was still fuming with anger, my father told me that Tyr healed Fenrir so he will live. But that didn't calm my anger since Odin wished to chain Fenrir to the island he was on so he could save his own skin from the death that awaits him.

I was surprised that Odin didn't punish me for punching him and threatening him, I guess Tyr had a talk with him about that explaining so he would understand why I was angry and that I only spoke out of rage and not in a clear mind. He always seem to come to my rescue when I needed it; which made me smile just a small bit as I glanced out of the large window facing the ocean that surrounded Asgard for miles. I sighed to myself as I stood up and walked towards the shoreline that was behind my palace for it was on an island to the west with a bridge connecting it to the main palace of Asgard. I sat down on a large rock still looking out at the ocean and sun that was high in the sky; I hummed a tune that my mother always sung when we lived in Jotunheim when I was a child long ago.

[A/N: Song is called Fimbulvetr by SKÁLD translation to song is called The Awful Winter, I highly recommend listening while reading if you want]

"Ek man eftir Fimbulvetr, Þá drífr snær ór öllum áttum, Frost mikil ok vindar hvassir At vetr sá kemr. Þeir vetr fara þrír saman Ok ekki sumar milli, Ek man eftir Fimbulvetr Vindöld, vargöld, Sól tér sortna, Hann er a hverian veg, At vetr sá kemr. Hann hefir arnarham, En er hann beinir flug, þá standa vindar undan vængjum hans. Hann hefir arnarham, En er hann beinir flug, þá standa vindar undan vængjum hans. Hvaðan kemr vindr? þá má eigi sjá hann, Hvaðan kemr vindr? Hvaðan kemr vindr? þá má eigi sjá hann, því er hann undarliga skapaðr. Ek man eftir Fimbulvetr Þá drífr snær ór öllum áttum, Frost mikil ok vindar hvassir
At vetr sá kemr. Hann hefir arnarham, En er hann beinir flug, þá standa vindar undan vængjum hans. Hann hefir arnarham, En er hann beinir flug, þá standa vindar undan vængjum hans. Kári, Logi, reiði jötnar, Hraesvelg blæst Kári, Logi, reiði jötnar, Hraesvelg blæst Kári, Logi, reiði jötnar, Hraesvelg blæst Kári, Logi, reiði jötnar, Hraesvelg blæst Sér hon upp koma öðru sinni Jörð ór ægi iðjagræna, Falla forsar, flýgr örn yfir,
Sá er á fjalli fiska veiðir......" I sung softly to myself as I still sat there on the large rock. Letting my singing calm down to another humming tune as I had my eyes closed.

"Hel!" the voice of Zisa brought me out of my trance as I stood up from the rock seeing her coming over to me with a smile on her face.

"Zisa what is it?" I asked her as she came over to me.

"I have some wonderful news I wanted to share with you first with you being my best friend" Zisa said to me as she held my hands in hers seeing her smile growing inch by inch.

"What news?" I said still a little confused with what she was talking about which made her giggle from seeing my confused face.

"I'm with child, isn't that wonderful?" Zisa announced which took be surprise but also made me feel a loneliness in the pit of my stomach.

Hearing this only reminded me that Tyr might have feelings for me in return but he was still married to Zisa a young and beautiful lady unlike myself whose face was half burned off by the spell alone to keep my alive. It still reminded me that I was still alone and was still being forced into marrying a god I never loved and would never love or want children with me at all.

"Hel? Are you alright?" she asked when she looked at me.

"Yea, I am its just whoa I never thought I would hear that, congratulation; have you told Tyr yet?" I said trying to cover up what I was really feeling as I took in deep breathes.

"Not yet I needed to tell you since Tyr his helping the all father on some matters of the builder" she said as her smile came back on her face once more.

"Well, I'm happy for the both of you really I am" I said as I faked a smile on my face as she hugged me as I returned the hug as well letting my smile fall a bit when she wasn't looking.

"I should get back, I'll see you soon" Zisa said as she looked at me again having her wave goodbye as she went back to her palace.

I waved back until she was far enough away is when I finally let me legs give out on me and fall to the rocky shore letting the water of the ocean hit my kneels getting my dress half wet as I sat there still in a state of sad shock as I slowly turned my face seeing my reflection in the soft waves that swift back and forth.

Even though I loved Tyr with all my heart I know what had to be done, I had to let him go and be with his wife and now child to be; I may be the goddess of the dead but it didn't mean I was cruel and unfair. I sighed as I slowly stood up turning back to walk into my chambers to change into dry clothes and to meet Tyr when the time was right to end things between us.

I really felt fear crawl over my body as I walked back and forth in the woods away from the palace of Asgard, I sent word to Tyr to meet me after he spoke to Zisa. I know this was going to be hard but I wasn't going to be selfish I never was selfish about anything, it was always my way of thought to put people's needs before my own.

"Hel?" Tyr's voice brought me out of my thinking as I turned around to face him.

I guess the look on my face brought him to worry as he was soon by my side holding my hands in his, worried something was wrong. There wasn't but I was never good with emotions that were as strong as these feeling about Tyr were.

"We need to um, talk about something" I started as I found it hard to look at him in the eyes.

The look of worry was still on his face as he waited for me continue what I was wanting to talk about I know that Zisa told him her news and I know he was wondering what I was about to say. I took a deep breath before I looked up at him to tell him.

"We can't let whatever is happening between us grow.....not with how things are, Zisa needs you more than ever.....and I think its best that....that.....we don't see each other anymore...." I said to him as tears began to build up in my eyes threatening to spill at any more.

"Hel I-" he began but I had to cut him off so he didn't make this harder for the both of us.

"No....no this has to stop, I'm happy for you both and I am happy that you showed me that I can be loved by someone" I said as I held my hands up to stop him.

I wanted to walk away from him to leave before I broke down from my breaking heart, but I felt him turn me around holding both my arms in his hands to make me look and him.

"Hel, I love you; you hear me? I love you" Tyr said to me saying the truth that I had to fight for his sack and for Zisa.

"I know you do Tyr and I love you too....really I do, but please let me go! Please just LET ME GO!!" I was finally breaking down into tears in front of him trying so hard to leave even though I wish I couldn't, until I finally broke away from his grip to run away from him.

"HEL!!" he shouted out to me as I ran away from him deeper into the forest.

I never looked back and I kept on running until I was in the mountains that were covered in snow, my tears never stopped from falling from my eyes as I finally fell to my kneels in the snow; covering my face in my hands as I cried loudly into them feeling my heart shatter into so many pieces hearing Tyr's words replay in my head over and over. I know that he loved me but this was for the best for the both of us, my father warned me and I think he was right, but this didn't make things any easier it just made things harder to know that this wouldn't last for long.