FOREVER TOGETHER [PJM]

CHAPTER 32

Lately, I've been, I've been thinking
I want you to be happier, I want you to be happier

When the morning comes
When we see what we've become
In the cold light of the day we're a flame in the wind
Not the fire that we've begun
Every argument, every word we can't take back
'Cause with the all that has happened
I think that we both know the way that this story ends

Than only for a minute
I want to change my mind
'Cause this just don't feel right to me
I wanna raise your spirits
I want to see you smile but
Know that means I'll have to leave

Know that means I'll have to leave
Lately, I've been, I've been thinking
I want you to be happier, I want you to be happier

When the evening falls
And I'm left there with my thoughts
And the image of you being with someone else
Well, that's eating me up inside
But we run our course, we pretend that we are okay
Now if we jump together at least we can swim
Far away from the wreck we made

- Happier by Bastille and Marshmello
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JIEUN P.O.V

Recently what I do most is sleeping. Just by a few chores I feel exhausted. I badly wanna dance like before; when everything was so fine before I was caught by this damn sickness but unfortunately... there's a limit that my body can take.

One thing I really hate after getting sick is when I need to puke. It's not just food I vomit but blood. And on top of it the ache in my abdomen is literally killing me slowly. How bad I not wanna feel anything?

It has been a few weeks since we found out about my sickness and ever since that day Min Jun would check on me day and night. And so does Sehi. Also they make sure that I take the medicine on time.

Something I wondered was why they are making me have this much of medicines when both them and I know that I cannot be cured. I want to ask them but I will not. If I ask them they'd definitely get sad. I don't wanna make them feel bad anymore than they are now. So I keep such thoughts to myself and do as they tell me.

Despite me being sick for sometime now I didn't let anyone know. None of the girls nor the BTS members know for that matter. Not even Jimin.

Before anyone I wanted to let Jimin know about this. My situation affects the both of us and he'll have to think through this situation a lot but for some reason I cannot bring myself to tell him.

At times when I plan to enlighten him with the current happenings he'd do something cute and lovable that makes me not want to tell him and break his heart. And there were certain times when someone would interrupt to our conversations giving me no space to talk about us. Thus I gradually stopped trying to tell him.

I tried my best to act natural in front of Jimin and the others. There were plenty of times I had to give up on certain shows as my body couldn't keep up with the training and it made them question me a lot. But other than that I suppose I'm doing fine with keeping up my act together.

"Good morning baby!"

Stretching my arms and legs I opened my eyes to be welcomed by the half naked sight of Jimin. A blue shirt was in his hands while a black denim hugged his toned thighs.

"Morning Jimin!"

Sitting straight on the bed I greeted him back.

Sitting next to me Jimin leaned forward to place a kiss on my lips but before our lips could meet I turned my head away.