What is Trust? (JakeXreader)

Part 7 || why do I feel this?

Y/N's POV

Jake: "what boyfriend?" I gulped as his face was in front of me. Why do I suddenly feel lightheaded? Why am I feeling the same way I did when I first met Dongmin...

Y/N: "get off of me" I pushed him away and we stared at each other annoyed "that was my boyfriend fyi and don't ever do that to me!" I was gonna walk away but he grabbed my hand and pinned me to the wall

Jake: "why didn't you tell me you had a boyfriend?" He looked at me angrily and I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion

Y/N: "what does it mean to you anyway?!" He moved his face closer so I could feel his breathe on mine.

Jake: "what's wrong with being curious" I didn't respond but he just started leaning in slowly and I saw him transfer his gaze onto my lips. I transferred mine too to his and our eyes slowly started closing but- no! This was wrong! I pushed him off of me and sighed

Y/N: "I know I said I owe you one but don't take advantage of it! I'm willing to do you a favor. But just one! Don't act like I'm ok with you doing anything you like to me" I walked away and locked my door. I know John said he protected girls but he acts like he was a playboy himself!

Jake's POV

I felt bad for what I did. I shouldn't have done anything after hearing she had a boyfriend. But- why did I feel so bad after hearing that... why does this girl stand out from the rest? Why does she always lock her doors too? Why did I react like that

Y/N's POV

I locked my door and slid down my door frame. Why does he make my stomach feel so weird like I'm in a roller coaster? Why does he make me feel so light headed? And how does he make me hear my own heartbeat in my head? I placed my knees up and rested my arms on each knee with my hands dangling in the middle. I glanced at my phone and sighed as I saw my lock screen. Dongmin and I's first date in the park... I placed my phone on my forehead not knowing what I should do. I should call my brother. A few rings and he finally picked up

Soobin: "oh y/n! How's my sis?"
Y/N: "I'm fine... I just miss you" I sighed
Soobin: "c'mon what's wrong~ you never call me just to say you miss me" I chuckled sadly, funny how he knew me so well
Y/N: "fine you caught me"
Soobin: "now tell me what's wrong"
Y/N: "nothing it's just- what does it mean when you get lightheaded around someone or you have this tight feeling around your chest? I'm just asking for a friend!"
Soobin: "ohhh~ so maybe your 'friend' might be having feelings for him" I knew he knew it was me but we just played along
Y/N: "no but-! But this friend hates him!"
Soobin: "really? Or does she keep convincing herself that" I stayed silent thinking about it. If I had the mindset of saying I was ok with Jake... in all honesty he wasn't all bad "you're not responding so does that mean you do like him?"
Y/N: "o-o-oppa! No! I-I dont! I mean- I-" I couldn't find the words and I started rambling
Soobin: "y/n you have a boyfriend remember that... but if you break up with him that would totally make my day cause I hate Dongmin"
Y/N: "oppa~"
Soobin: "what? He's a playboy"
Y/N: "whatever"
Soobin: "who is this new guy anyway?"
Y/N: "Sim Jake... he's my roommate and..." I explained to him our circumstances and how I felt towards him. I still didn't tell him about Minsung though cause if he found out he'd pull me out of here
Soobin: "in all honesty if I wasn't your brother I'd think you had feelings for him"
Y/N: "wha-"
Soobin: "think about it y/n. Stop denying your feelings, you said it didn't feel as good to talk to Dongmin ever since you transferred right?" I sighed through the phone "I gtg but just think about it" he hung up the phone and I rested my phone on my hands. I turned and laid down and slapped my face repeatedly. What am I supposed to do?!

Jake's POV

I took a nap on the couch without noticing. I heard the door open and I could see y/n quietly trying to exit without waking me up. I pretended to be asleep while squinting my eyes to see what she was doing. Once she exited the door I stood up and grabbed my hoodie and exited the door following her. I guess she felt me as she kept looking back. I just kept repeating in my mind that I'm only following her to make sure she's safe. I mean what if Minsung comes back? I just convinced myself by repeating it in my head again and again but I knew that in the back of my head I followed her because I was curious. Wait this- this direction, I know this! I used to always go here!

I followed her a bit more and sure enough she sat down at the very same spot I always sat at. She didn't use her phone or read a book, she just held something while looking out at the ocean

Y/N's POV

I got comfortable in my place and brought out my photo with Dongmin. It was a picture of us in my living room under one giant blanket over our heads and snacks in between us. Dongmin was hugging me and I was hugging his waist while we smiled at Soobin who was taking our photo. I remember that night, we had an all nighter and slept at around 6am. I fell asleep on his lap and he fell asleep backwards while his hand was on my head. That was such a fun night. I sighed and shifted my focus on the ocean ahead of me. Why don't I feel anything that much while looking at our picture? Why does it feel weird to be with Dongmin. Why did I start feeling these things when Jake came around? I burried my head in between my knees and groaned.

Jake: "what are you doing here?"