What is Trust? (JakeXreader)

Part 9 || friends

Y/N's POV

Jake: "did you guys ever fuck?" I widened my eyes and moved away from him

Y/N: "what the fuck is that question?! No! Of course not! I haven't even had my first kiss!" When I said this it brought me back to the memory of when I was literally gonna allow Jake to kiss me back in the dorm!

Jake: "chill just guessing cause it looked like you guys were doing Netflix and chill" he rolled his eyes and leaned back on his arms chuckling. I was weirded out by him but then I followed his position and we stayed silent for a while. We felt the breeze against our faces and stared ahead at the ocean. Hearing the waves crash on the rocks, the trees and branches moving around to make this crackling noises just made the atmosphere so much better. I looked to my side and unknowingly I smiled looking at Jake closing his eyes like I did a while ago. He's not so bad... he's actually really fun to talk to. I chuckled and closed my eyes as well

Jake: "were you crying cause you're confused about your feelings for him?" I lifted my head up and gave him a scared and surprised face "I guess I'm right?" He chuckled and laid on his back with his arms spread out. I lifted my body and faced him.

Y/N: "how did you know?" He smiled not answering. I was confused but I decided to just wait. He sighed later on and it seemed like he wasn't playing around anymore

Jake: "why would you be crying while looking at you guys' picture right? And plus you were just on the phone with him a while ago so that means you guys didn't break up. I didn't think you guys fought unless it was serious because you wouldn't be crying that much if it was just a petty fight" I laid down with my hands behind my head and sighed facing him. He faced me with a smile then looked back up at the sky again "if it was something serious I'm guessing it would be about your feelings towards him"

A wave of realization hit me on how well he knew me. Or did he just know how to observe people?

Jake's POV

She stayed quiet after I finished talking. Did I overstep? Did I speak too much? My brain stopped functioning for a second after I realized I've been observing her too much.

Y/N: "I don't know how you know that but yeah... you're right" I turned my head to the left and she turned her head towards me. We stared at each other for a while not saying anything.

Y/N's POV

As I stared at his eyes I just felt comfort and I felt like someone was actually there for me. I felt like there was someone who I can lean back on. I teared up and as a drop rolled down my cheek I looked back up and wiped my eyes with both my hands. I let out a sad chuckle.

Y/N: "sorry" I sniffed and sighed "I don't know what's happening to me"

Jake: "I don't mind... its normal to have break downs" I slightly smiled while looking at him again. I sat up at faced the ocean again and he did the same. We stayed quiet for a while just feeling the coolness of the breeze. Should I trust him? He isn't as bad as I thought...

Jake: "sorry about teasing you" I hummed in a questioning tone "sorry about teasing you, I won't do it anymore. I was just annoyed because I thought you'd be one of the girls who won't stop bothering me and always try to seduce me" I tilted my head. There were girls who did that?

Y/N: "it's alright... sorry for being rude to you too" A moment of silence came until he spoke again

Jake: "so friends?" He extended his hand to me. I smiled and shook it

Y/N: "friends" we chuckled and he stood up pulling me up as well.

Jake: "we should head back it's getting dark" there was this weird smile on my face but I couldn't just drop it. I just felt like smiling around him. "Oh don't forget your picture" that's when my smiled dropped. I looked at the photo and sighed. While looking at Dongmin I didn't feel anything. I mean I did miss him but there was just something wrong. "C'mon let's walk back" he gestured with his head and his hands in his pockets waiting for me to walk beside him. I smiled and we walked back quietly to our dorm.

This was new... I'm not getting any butterflies around him but I like hanging with him. I like his presence. But with Dongmin, I remember being so nervous around him and I had so much butterflies that I felt like throwing up. This feeling brought me back to something my mother said before she passed...

<flashback; middle school>

Y/N: "mom look! I'm graduating middle school! I'm finally gonna be a teenager in highschool!" I jumped around excited to know I was growing up.

Mom: "I'm happy you're excited but let me tell you something" she patted the seat beside her signaling me to sit down next to her. "When you enter highschool there's gonna be a lot of boys who'll like you"

Y/N: "who's gonna like me mom?"

Mom: "someone, I know there's someone out here who will love my little girl" I smiled and she bopped my nose

Y/N: "but how will I find the right guy?"

Mom: "you know when you have a crush on someone and you get butterflies around them?" I nodded "well they're not the one"

Y/N: "huh?"

Mom: "if you get butterflies around them that means you're nervous, you can't be yourself with them. You feel like you have to make yourself look good in front of them"

Y/N: "so how will I know?"

Mom: "if you don't feel anything at all, sure you're heart can skip a beat from time to time but if majority of the time you're with them and you don't get butterflies, then they're most likely the one"

Y/N: "why is that?"

Mom: "because you feel safe with them, you don't feel like you have to change yourself for them, you feel comfortable with them instantly. And most importantly you trust them right away"

Y/N: "woooow"

<flashback ends>