Mean Something (Jemily)

Chapter 12 - Short conversations (Emily POV)

TW: Mentions of miscarriage

As I made my way over to my desk, I felt my phone vibrate in my pocked "Glad you got there in one piece. Be safe at work."-Blackbird . I smiled and shot back a short "You too." Before sitting down groaning over the stack of files on my desk. Time flew by as I tried to catch up with everything I missed while gone. Before I knew it the workday was over, and I found myself waiting on Candice finish up so we could go. Everyone at Interpol knew we were together, but she didn't work directly under me, and we somehow managed to convince the higher-ups it wouldn't be a problem. I know everyone says not to date in your job, but when it comes to jobs as demanding as ours it was hard to find a life outside of them. I glanced down at my watch once again and noticed the time 5:45 "She's taking a while today." I thought before realizing this would be the perfect time to check in with JJ. I scrolled through my contacts and tapped her name before bringing the phone up to my ear.

It rang a few times before I heard a stern "Jareau," echo through the speaker. I couldn't help but laugh "Oh are we on last time bases now Mrs. Jareau?" I heard JJ stifle out a laugh on the other end "Hey Em, sorry we're on a case. I didn't realize it was you calling." "Oh, are you busy? I can let you go. I just wanted to check in and see how you were." "Didn't you just see me?" She teased "No, I'm not busy. The teams checking out some leads. I'm waiting at the station for the press to get here so we can touch base with the public." I sighed relieved "Well, good. Glad to hear its going okay. How are you feeling?" I asked hoping she got the hint "Oh I feel like complete shit." She said quite bluntly "This little thing is kicking my ass. How long do you think I can go before the team realizes I don't have food poisoning?" I laughed "Tell them it's a stomach bug... You wouldn't be lying, technically." "Did you just compare your future niece or nephew to a virus?" she chirped back, laughter in her voice. "More like a parasite, but I digress." I heard a drawn out "Wow" followed by some laughter come over the phone as I saw Candice heading my direction. I cleared my throat "Well, I'm glad to hear you're doing okay, but I have to get going." I said quickly "Don't be a stranger. I love you Em." I promised I'd text her soon, told her I loved her and hung up the phone. "Ready to go?" I asked reaching for Candice's hand "You have no idea. I can't wait to tell you what the new guy did today!" she laughed at we walked to the car.

I tried to keep true to my promise, JJ and I sent text back and forth. Replies usually took a few hours. Time differences and the demands of life often getting in our way. But soon enough, hours turned to days, and days turned to weeks between replies. Getting settled back into my routine with Candice and work wasn't hard, but I always had JJ in the back of my mind.

"Hey, how are you?"-Em.

"Fine. Busy."-JJ

Days passed.

"Hey, I just wanted to check in."-Em.

-Read

Silence.

"I thought you'd enjoy this photo of Tiger trying to harass the birds outside"-Em.

-Read

More silence.

"How's my favorite agent?"-Em.

-Read

"I wasn't referring to Reid"-Em.

-Unopened

Two weeks passed and not a single word from JJ.

"Hey, I wanted to check on you... how's the baby?"-Em.

"Gone."-JJ.

My heart sank.

"Oh JJ... I'm so sorry. Do you need anything?"-Em.

"No."-JJ.

"Okay. Well, I'm here if you need anything, don't hesitate. Love you"-Em.

"Thanks."-JJ.

I closed my phone letting out a heavy sigh. Candice rolled over in bed and looked at me "Everything okay, Love?" She inquired "It's JJ. She's been ignoring me..." I trailed off "And she— Uh. She lost the baby." I awkwardly choked out. Candice reached for my hand "Oh, that's awful." she said softly squeezing my hand "She's strong Em, it'll be okay. Just be there for her when she needs it." I nodded and closed my eyes ready for bed. I tried to sleep, but my mind raced. Thoughts of JJ going through her second miscarriage overtook me. I hoped she wasn't going through it alone, but I knew JJ better than that. She probably once again hid it from Will, and I didn't blame her. He wasn't much for comfort recently. I laid awake thinking of what our life could be if we were together, guilt turning in my chest knowing that thinking like this was wrong. Even more I knew it was wrong to be thinking this was while I'm in a relationship, but I couldn't help my mind from wandering.