Untold stories of Ymir. (Ymir x female reader) |Complete!|

Missing Your embrace

(Readers POV)

Me and Souta were just silently riding on our horses when I hear him start coughing a little bit. Of course I didn't find this odd because back at HQ he would cough quite a bit. He said that he had gone for a check up with Doctor Dragneel but i'm kind of getting worried for him.

"Hey Souta.....Did you really get that checked?" I ask him, trotting my horse up beside him trying to make sure that he's doing okay.

"Y-yeah, I- I did..." He says quietly.

I feel wrong lying to my friends and just running away from my problems. I've never really been one to run away when things get tough rather i'm usually the one helping people through the tough times and going through it with them.

I still feel empty rather it be from Ymir leaving or from me being a coward and running away from my only family. But...part of me feels better that i'm getting a new start. Though I technically am the Female Titan now so they could come searching for the wrong reasons....

"Hey, Uh aren't you worried about them getting hurt looking for us- well looking for you? They probably see me as the bad guy now.." Souta says, Pulling me out of my trance.

"Well, I was kind of thinking about that and I'm sorry to say this but if they see you as the bad guy I can't leave them....Their my family rather they still want to be or even if they hate me..." I respond. Looking forward to see my horse I start petting his mane.

He's the one person that has been here for me the whole time......

(Beginning Of Flashback)

Walking down the hallway, going towards the mess hall. I find Levi looking at new tea cups. My eyes go wide as I slowly try and tiptoe my way past his office.

"L/n! Get in here now!" He says, raising his voice.

I sigh and nod my head as I start my way over to his office. Taking the first few steps he stays silent that is.....until he shuts the door....

"L/n, sit down...."

I look at him up and down placing my hand on my hip. "Why?" I ask him.

"Tch, JUST.....Just sit down..." He says. He usually only raises his voice at anyone BUT me....This...this is new....

"O-okay, uh what would you like L-levi?" I stutter being a terrified mess.

Sitting down on his freshly lint-rolled fabric chair at his newly dusted off and organized desk, he reaches out to grab one of his fairly arranged coasters and puts it onto his clean desk before placing his mug right on top.

"I would like to know why you didn't tell me you were okay...and I would like to know why you just suddenly started talking again out of nowhere." Levi says, lifting his mug up to his lips and taking a sip of his tea before carefully placing his cup back down.

"Well I was talking to Souta a-and he said you guys missed me?..."

"YOU!- ughhhh, Why didn't you feel better after I came to see you?" Levi responds pinching the bridge of his nose in frustration.

I start sniffling silently, not wanting him to know that it's all an act. "Well....I don't know..It made me happy knowing you were still here for me but I....I just wasn't ready okay..." I finish looking away.

"Get out" Levi says, looking towards me which I see from the corner of my eye.

"W-what?" I ask, in the hopes that I didn't hear that correctly

"I SAID GET OUT!!" He yells. I just nod my head and make my way out of his office.

I take my last step out of his office onto the hard wood flooring and then he slams the door behind me making my  body jerk to the side. I then hear a crash and just roll my eyes not knowing what I did this time.

(End of flashback)

Now that I think about it.....Everyone's probably better off without me...I already miss them though..

Should I go back?....No..I should continue with Souta....B-but I wanna see my friends and family  one more time......NO Y/N! y-you can't go back....At least not until........Well if Ymir comes back we come back! Although I highly doubt that Souta will want to go back..

"Hey Y/n......." Souta says, I don't realize him calling me though because I'm still lost in thought. Then I realize someone calling me and......I look at him not realizing that i'm crying..

Ymir....P-please come back to me....I-I need you right now...

FUCKKKKKK! Ymir PLEASE HEAR ME! I'm using my damn Telepathy for you! I know that if your close by that you can hear me...You can't be that far because our coordinates are NB83 which is a five month walk if you are a human. I'M PRETTY DAMN SURE THAT YOUR A FUCKING HUMAN!

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...........UGHHHHHHH YMIR PLEASE!!

I feel a tear drop trickle down the side of my face as my thoughts overwhelm me and I try continuously to reach-out to Ymir.....

"Y/N! PLEASE STOP SHOUTING. DID YOU FORGET THAT I CAN HEAR YOU TO!? Please only use your brain and not your Telepathy...." Souta yells. I turn my head as I gasp for air. "Y-yeah...i'm sorry for that..." I agree, making sure to turn off my range of thoughts. (Hi! Meca Y/n here! Just wanted to say that if you didn't already realize it. Turning off your range basically means that if your telepathy had a switch it would be turning it off!)

I-i've gone insane....I-i'm crazy....BUT ONLY FOR HER.

I start cracking my knuckles single-handed trying to relieve some sort of frustration. I feel frustrated, sad, angry, and lonely all at once.....

I hope that you know I love you...Okay...I WILL find you someday.....I don't care how long it takes! Your my girlfriend and I have the right to look for you even if I get killed doing so! You were and are my one and only love.

I-i miss your embrace....Ymir...

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still editing and my cousins annoying me-