Soulmate (Completed) 18+

Part 21

**Gul's POV**

**A Week Later**

I was currently on a plane home. 

The last week was spent trying to re-find myself away from everyone else because no matter how much I didn't want these things to be true, I couldn't get my dad's words out of my head. 

Than I spent time actually thinking about it and going through these last 10 years I've spent with Prem and realized that my parents might be right...

I mean after we connected it took us two years to get close to each other and feel comfortable before we even started dating and after we started dating things were still a little awkward but we didn't mind because we thought it was normal. 

At this point being around him was as normal as breathing but that was because we've spent the last 10 years together...

The problem with this realization was that after that dawned on me I started to re-think my encounters with Mew and if I put aside the surprise, anger and denial. I felt comfortable with him the moment I met him. 

Before I found out who he was we clicked instantly and I felt happy and natural around him. All of this was covered with other emotions when I found out we connected which clouded my judgment. 

Compared to a 10 year relationship Mew didn't even come close to Prem and I but no matter how much I want to deny it. He makes me feel almost the same way Prem does and I've only know him for a few months...

Just accepting this fact made me want to cry because I knew what it meant and it pained me to go through with it. 

I'm not just on my way home to fix things with Prem, I'm on my way home to end things with him. 

It wasn't fair to him no matter which way I looked at it. 

He deserves better than me and I can no longer give him the love he would want from me. 

I just can't do that to him...

I spent 3 days alone trying my best to think up reasons of why I should stay with him and the ones I came up with just weren't enough. It hurts so freaking much.

On top of that I am no longer on speaking terms with my parents. Yes I stayed at there house and ate dinner with them and saw them every day for a week but I haven't spoken one word to them since that night. 

Knowing what I know now just made me angry, sad and tired. 

It was almost to the point to where I need a vacation from my vacation. 

There's only 30 minutes left before I reach the airport and my hands were shaking from the anticipation of what I needed to do today. Prem doesn't know that I'm coming home today. I've talked to him on the phone every single day but I never told him when I would be home because I didn't really know at the time. 

I almost stayed for another week but I knew that I couldn't do that, I needed to go back to work and Moon was treating me better than I deserved. I couldn't do that to her. 

On top of that I have also talked to Mew a times since the night he called me. It felt wrong not calling him now and I couldn't explain why. Even though I have no intention of being with him just because I'm ending things with Prem, I couldn't help but crave his voice. 

He makes me feel calm now when he use to only make me feel panicked and tired. 

So much has changed in such a short amount of time. I feel like someone took my life in there hands and flipped it upside down while only giving me a few plastic bags to keep myself up instead of a parachute.