Soulmate (Completed) 18+

Part 9

**Gulf's POV**

I could smell the scent of Prem's conditioner, it was a soft fragrance of vanilla and I loved it. He was currently curled into my arms sleeping peacefully against my chest as I rub his head. 

Over the last month I have done a lot of thinking and came to the conclusion that it must have been a mistake. 

The connection couldn't have been possible but maybe since mine already connected to Prem's years ago there was a fluke?

Right?

Letting out a sigh I close my eyes and continue to breathe in slowly. 

There is just no way I can except the fact that my destiny would screw me over like this. I found my soulmate already, I've spent almost a decade with him and I love him with every fiber of my being. 

Why would I give that up for someone I just met?

Someone that could have messed with his Soullace to make sure it connected with mine. Who knows maybe he's had his eyes on me for a while and thought it would be funny to fuck with me.

No...

That's not right...

Earth and Santa would never be friends with someone like that, they would never introduce me to someone like that after knowing how much I respect our laws and way of living.

I mean fuck I can't even watch the news if it has that asshole rebellion shit on there nowadays. Ever since I was little I've been like this, I hate rebellion, I hate false justice and I hate lying...

Without even trying I've become something I hate, I'm a liar now. No matter how many times I've tried to bring up this subject to Prem over the last 30 days I haven't been able to. All I could do was attach myself to him and slowly start to feel like I was going to loose him.

There have been days where I couldn't even go into work and I made Prem stay home too. I couldn't help but latch to him for dear life. 

What if I blink and he is no longer there?

What if he finds out and thinks he isn't good enough?

There are just so may what if's that have been running through my head lately. It gets to the point to where I either get a headache or my nose begins to bleed. 

It doesn't help that we both have the same friend group because now I'm stuck going to dinner with him and Earth once Santa comes back tomorrow. I already asked Prem if he could go with me but he had to do extra shifts at the library so I won't have anyone to keep me grounded and that worries me. 

I don't want to lose my cool Infront of everyone.

I mean every time he shows up in front of me or goes to my work I want to slam a door in his face or throw something at him. How am I going to survive 2 to 3 hours of small talk without getting upset or showing that I don't like him?

Maybe I should end any hopes he has before than that way it won't get worse. I don't have work today so I could go over there and tell him everything, that I have a partner, that I want nothing to do with him and that he better stay quiet about this whole thing because I don't want any trouble.

I should probably ask him why our soullace connected to begin with too...

Feeling confident and determined for once I slowly grab Prem's arms and try to pull him off of me gently when his body tenses and we wraps himself around me tighter. 

Prem: Barely a sleepy whisper. "Where are you going?"

Crap...

Gulf: Letting out a sigh I glance over at him with a smile before kissing his forehead. "No where, I wanted to grab some water because my throat is sore."