Soulmate (Completed) 18+

Part 32

**Mew's POV**

Pushing open the door to my apartment I make room for Gulf to go Infront of me as I close the door behind me with my foot. 

We had just gotten back from the grocery store and Gulf was suppose to start preparations for dinner. Him coming over has become quiet normal for the last week, we usually spend it eating, watching movies or discussing rude people from work that make us laugh now. 

There were a few deeper conversations too that I didn't intend on having, mostly just about going into detail about my past. The only problem about any of the time we have spent together was that he wasn't giving me any signals for whether or not he likes me. 

Yes he came over for my birthday and we cuddled on the couch but I feel like he just did that for me because it was my birthday and than the last 3 weeks he hasn't been distant like before or shy's away from me when our soullaces connect but other than that he doesnt try anything. 

I specifically told him that if he had any plan on us being together or any feelings toward me at all than he should kiss me but he hasn't and as far as I can tell he has no plan on doing so either. 

Which is why I am slowly loosing confidence in myself when it comes to him picking me. 

I mean other than the forces of the universe telling us to be together, I have nothing else on Prem. I am useless when it comes to be partner material and he probably doesnt see me as anything other than a friend at this point.

Which is fine, I did say that I would accept any thing he gave me and I meant it but I can't help but feel disappointed.  

Becky keeps telling me to hold on and be patient but how much does she really expect from Gulf? I mean he's spent more than half the time we've known each other hating me so yea. 

I have no chance at finding my way into his heart. 

Why does my confidence have to disappear so quickly?

I tend to look in the mirror now and feel like I won't be enough for him. 

This sucks...

Gulf: Calling from the fridge as I set my bags on the counter. "Dinner will probably take me around an hour to make, is that okay?"

Mew: I give him a small smile before sitting down in one of the stool chairs by the counter. "That's no problem, Becky asked me to look at the finance books because apparently there was an issue with our funds last week."

Gulf: I could see him frowning as he pulls on my apron that was hanging in the corner before un packing the rest of our grocery's. "Does she have any idea why your missing money?"

Mew: "No idea, the only thing I can think of off the top of my head is that she wrote something down wrong when ordering our products or one of the other employees is stealing from the register."

Gulf: He started preparations. "I would recommend telling Becky to get a camera installed to be able to catch what's going on."

Mew: I had my paper and calculator on the counter as I start going through everything. "That's a pretty good idea, I'll bring it up to her in a few days if the issue doesn't get resolved."

Gulf: "Don't wait too long okay?"

Mew: "I won't."

I could feel his stare on me but I refused to look up from my papers as he continued to cook. 

Every once in a while I couldn't help but look up at him. At some point he started to hum while he cooked and I couldn't help but smile to myself as I listened to him.